On love... "Untitled" by well me.

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You built me a beautiful castle with flowers and crystals and love.

However in my grandiosity it was never enough.

A palette never satiated- hands that are always bare

Left me so broken with no spirit for you to repair.

A love so brief and splendid-

It tore my world apart-

It was not by brick my brick we fell

Just immersed straight into hell...
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jpmetsfan:

Mood and emotion are the essence of poetry -- sensing the mood and feeling the emotion is the whole point. Well done... Keep writing!

fels:

@griffxx @jpmetsfan thanks guys ! And I plan to- a friend of my encouraged me to write every day so I just sit and start until there's nothing left to write lol. 

Spiritual Retreat

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Hey everyone- I wanted to let you all know that I will be going away for at least a few months. I need to get out of my city and into nature. I need to pray and mediate and focus on myself for a while. I have had a lot of medical problems lately and I need to address why I am not taking steps...
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onespeed:

good luck and be well!

fels:

It will only be a few months <3 hopefully when I have Internet again I'll see my name in pink xx

heartbreak

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is it just me....or is it really annoying to get dumped and have your friends say the following

...he was an asshole

...i wouldn't dump you

...there are plenty of people out there

...get over it

...want to go get a drink?

Sorry, but I got dumped a week ago. He wasn't an asshole. I miss him and I fucked it all...
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torturedbythecia:

I.E. - I broke up with two women in my life - and neither time did it have anything to do with me not being absolutely in love with them - because I very much loved both of them.

flowerbomb:

oh good! <3

I have a secret

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I write every single day...

I don't like to read what I write to people

So I am challenging myself to post my poetry as spoken word. Here is the link to my sound cloud if you want to check it out. It isn't much just some musings.

https://soundcloud.com/fels_natalia

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fels:

@fired_up That makes me very happy. I never thought of myself as a poet. It wasn't until I met that guy that I let people see my writing. I will be writing every day on my retreat as I do now. I hope to have some productive time to myself. I think I might pick up some classes when I get home. I really do love it. Music and Writing are my biggest passions beyond modeling. I need to strike a balance and figure out what drives me forward as a human being. ALSO- there is a new poem up :)

fired_up:

You are just too awesome :D <3

I was so terrified

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I don't know if any of you have suffered seizures.... Last night I had one but it was different then my typical episodes. I was gone for 40 minutes. I guess my blood sugar dropped to 50 which is crazy because I eat roughly between 3000-3200 calories a day. I don't know what happened except I felt like I did. They said that...
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fired_up:

Hypoglycemic seizures/shock are scary, love. I respond to so many.... The good news is that because it's such a common call, our ability to quickly react is almost instinctive. The tricky part comes with how differently people react to their glucose levels. I've had people holding conversations with sugar in the 20s, and I've found people in seizures in the high 50s.... I'm glad you're alright :) ♡

fels:

Thanks everyone- I'll be getting some testing done they're worried cause I'm tiny. I have celiac tough :( stupid malnutrition is doesn't matter how much I eat hence medical marijuana . Hopefully my body stops being a Butthead and doesn't do that again. I seriously feel like a different girl . I'm just so happy to be alive 

Mood changer

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go to bar- order the most delicious scotch you can NEAT ! Try to put ice near my scotch and you die. That is all

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amethyst_:

You are so right ♥

fired_up:

A woman after my own heart ♡ lol

WOOOOOO!!!!

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So I am kind of like a little kid in that I get SUPER excited about things. One- my favorite SG followed me back this week Two-Front page again weeeeeee! three- broke 300 followers! yippee! *happydance* I WILL NEED...YES NEED to post another video soon to celebrate!

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fels:

@fired_up hold on this amazing scotch might do the trick for video inspiration 

fired_up:

Mmmmm making me thirsty!