fatmike73

What a shitty day. I got back from Europe yesterday, which by the way was awesome. Anyway, i get home, and not only have my roomates not cleaned while I was gone but they have further trashed the house. Plus i had to work last night so I ended up being up for 30 hours yesterday before I finally got to sleep. Then to top...
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So I'm sitting in an airport in London. It's cool being in Europe. Still I'm looking forward to gettting back. There is someone I really want to see. She's beautiful, cool, and understands me, what more could a guy want.

I'm actually in a good mood. imagine that. i have been talking to this girl online for awhile and she is really awesome and finally last night I got to talk to her on the phone. It completely made my night. i was in a good mood until i went to sleep this am and i woke up in a good mood. Can't wait til...
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I've got to admit things are getting better. Plans for Europe are still on, yay! I had a talk with a friend of mine thatjust all in all made me feel better.I just found out that the Violent Femmes are doing a free show. Plus if all goes well I should have someone really awesome to go with.

Wow, it seems everything has to go wrong at the same time. My friend whom I love had her car totalled by her friend whom I don't particularly care for. On top of that the very same night I get arrested for failing to show up for a traffic ticket in ciourt and got to spend the night in jail. So now the plans for...
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I was happy in the haze of a drunken hour
but heaven knows I'm miserable now
I was looking for a job, and then I found a job
and heaven knows I'm miserable now

In my life
why do I give valuable time
to people who don't care if I live or die

Two lovers entwined pass me by
and heaven knows I'm miserable now...
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i wish i had something clever to say, even if it wasn't my clever saying.

Had a pretty good evening. Went to see the Wedding Crashers. Good film. Finally decided stay sober for the evening. Last night too. i'm on a roll. Gotta get up Early tomorrow to go get my passport done.

I'm having a shitty day. I'm finding it really hard to talk to anyone. Especially since the only things i'm depressed about are all old problems, so i'd only be repeating myself if I talked to anyone. i just wish things could be simple just once. Everything from work, to vacation, to my love life or lack thereof has to be complicated.

Ok, Tuesday afternoon and still a little hung over. Wierd night. Lots of Absinth, Jack Daniels, not to mention other things that tend to get the authorities all in a tizzy. Gotta go to work soon and I'm completely dreading it. Work has become so full of drama lately. I think maybe I should slow down. i've been drinking absinthe nearly every night for the...
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Happiness can be bought for a little more than free. But am i really happy? I think not. There is always an undercurrent of unhappiness. The pain is always there. I try to push it away, hide in the bottom of a bottle absinthe, at the end of a razor blade. Still the pain always comes back. I should be happy. Pain is relative, and...
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Everything is beginning to take on a green hue. I really think I'm going to hell. Right now my family is in church praying to the absentee landlord while sit here fucked up on absinthe. For some reason The Decline is playing. I'm beginning to think my WinAmp knows when i'm fucked up and plays this on purpose. My mom woulsd say i have the...
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