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I made an important decision on Sunday, I am gonna leave the kitchen. I have to. I have been flogging my guts out and pursuing a passion, but to what lengths ?? I have been poor, which is not that bad, who needs things, I have walked away from wonderful relationships, most guys don't understand their girlfriends working 80 hours a week, I have lost appendage ( 2 fingertips) and have countless burns. I had somebody at the gas station ask me if I needed psychiatric help yesterday, apparently my hands look like I am a self mutilator.......... I know that I have to leave before I burn out completely. This has been festering too long inside of me, I have tried to mask it, disguise, dress it up and talk to it sweetly. My spirit is now affecting my body, my health is turning sour and my mood is constantly like this






I called a few job leads yesterday, and have an interview on Thursday. I hope I land this apprenticeship, I need to change my life before it ends up killing me

I wish I could go for a run right now, I really need to blow off some steam!!!!


*sorry so boring, but I am frustrated !!!!!
and terrified. This is gonna be huge !!
and excited, finally a decision, a light at the end of the tunnel




oh yeah, I took these last night. The line might be a dangerous place for my camera, but so is the mosh pit.....



Cheesecake



Arctic Char with Caper Brown Butter Sauce

"I felt a cleaving in my mind
As if my brain had split;
I tried to match it, seam by seam,
But could not make them fit.

The thought behind I strove to join
Unto the thought before, ,
But sequence ravelled out of reach
Like balls upon a floor."