Tuesday Jan 25, 2005

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i have every intention of attempting a handjob for the first time ever tomorrow.

i kinda have no idea what i'm doing. any tips? help is greatly appreciated b/c i am lost, sadly.
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girl_afraid:
use lube. and ask him what he wants, and if he likes it.
james88:
Umm.... I hate to be the lone dissenting voice here, but I've never really received a good handjob before. I've gotten bad ones, one from a girlfriend who had hands like a fifty year old stonemason. I've gotten mediocre ones from thoughtful girlfriends who have listened to my directions. But I've never gotten a great one, except from myself.

If I was your boyfriend I would much rather swap a potential handjob for some hot makeout action with a little grinding.

Sunday Jan 23, 2005

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i cannot fucking stand my family.

they misconstrue everything i say and peck away at my insecurities in an attempt to keep me here b/c they know i will, thus, be too afraid to leave my comfort zone.

and i just realized how fucking sad it is that this is my "comfort".

Sunday Jan 23, 2005

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i cannot fucking stand my family.

they misconstrue everything i say and peck away at my insecurities in an attempt to keep me here b/c they know i will, thus, be too afraid to leave my comfort zone.

and i just realized how fucking sad it is that this is my "comfort".

Wednesday Jan 19, 2005

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it's cold and i'm tired and my head hurts.

and i have had a cold for a month straight. what's up with that?

now i have to go write a paper for my journalism class...
phineas:
i need to read "the stranger" and "dubliners". definitely on my list.

sorry to hear you're sick. stay overly warm. that's what my bio professor says anyway...

Saturday Jan 15, 2005

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this is how crazy/lame/stupid i am.

i have been dating my boyfriend for three weeks and i already told him i love him. and i do...i really am totally in love with him, but it's crazy that this is happening so fast.

but, i mean, you know when it feels really right without any doubts, right? thats how this feels. and i'm really happy, but...
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phineas:
good to hear that. i hope it works out.

Saturday Jan 01, 2005

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first kiss ever tonight.

i know i'm 19 and thus lame for never having actually kissed a boy before, but it happened tonight and with a guy that i actually really like, so, in essence what i'm trying to say is, i couldn't be happier right now.

and fuck you if you think i'm lame or a late bloomer or a prude or whatever. i...
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james88:
Congrats!

(I am insanely jealous.....)

Umm...Happy New Year ! kiss
jint:
wee, that's cool. the first kisses are allways the best.
and no, I don't think you're lame or anything...

Wednesday Dec 22, 2004

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oh man, sometimes, like, every so often, i sit across the table from a boy who is so fucking smart that i could not possibly want him more....

oh wait, thats only happened once, and it was today.

lemme just tell you, get in a heated debate about anything and be able to back what you say up, girls will fall all the fuck over...
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james88:
Smart girls are so attractive. It's nice to be with someone who can give you a good conversation and/or some good luvin.

also there are way too many conservative girls in my little college town. They are politically conservative and often don't voice their opinions much at all for fear of alienating people. I don't care how tight their jeans are, it is not sexy.
fenchurch:
True dat.

Thursday Dec 02, 2004

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i broke my toe while putting away dishes.

i am lame.

and i now i am also sore. frown
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declan_mac:
You're not lame, but i'ts possible you're a little clumsy.

Also, you make me feel super old cuz you're into the stuff I was into when I was your age which was like 2,000 years ago.

Panic on the streets of london...
bigblack81:
I want to talk to you more. I'd like to talk because you seem like that shy girl I'd want to talk to but be too shy to talk to anyway.

I like shy girls. I'm a shy boy. I wanted to add you on myspace. Take a look.

*touches your shoulder, not daring to hug you but wanting to*

Monday Nov 29, 2004

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the five things i want more than anything at this point in my life:

-i want to stand half naked in front of someone and have them tell me i am gorgeous and truly mean it.

-i want to sit in a bedroom with a real bed and a desk and ample space listening to the postal service and writing something i can feel proud...
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Wednesday Nov 24, 2004

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tomorrow is my birthday. i will be 19. eh.

this membership was a birthday gift from Lucky_Thirteen. i was pretty excited...i've wanted one for quite some time now. it is honestly quite a pleasure to finally be on here.

j'adore.

i shall now go listen to johnny cash. i am, in general, quite the lame-o.
hamcake:
eeek You got to dress up as Chuck E. Cheese? That is awesome! Happy birthday!