ok, heres a story ive never told anyone:
i was a senior in high school and i met this girl with short very blonde hair, almost white. i remember she looked like dick tracys girl from the moon. and she told me how she and her friends used to go skinny dipping at the old quary. in long lines, she said. in the moon light. and i realized such things were really possible! it struck me like a revelation.
i remember thinking, there are things i am missing, like sex. things that theoretically _could_ be. but arent. i just felt so much like an outsider. and so i have been, but its interesting how you can feel something like that so clearly. it dawned on me kids were actually doing these things! right in my own town. kids i didnt know.
and never would. they were way to hip for me. probably too stupid too. now i love stupid people. life. its SO FUCKING WEIRD- how you can live it , in your way - and miss it too. like , clean miss it. like it sailed right by.
ok im still in mood, i know. tomorrow i write my lecture on discipline. im looking forward to it. ive been planning it in the back of my mind for days....
rehearsed today. 3 hours straight. its coming. its just im so smashed then at night. its hard to work on academic things,.,, i did though. before i called miller time.
i was a senior in high school and i met this girl with short very blonde hair, almost white. i remember she looked like dick tracys girl from the moon. and she told me how she and her friends used to go skinny dipping at the old quary. in long lines, she said. in the moon light. and i realized such things were really possible! it struck me like a revelation.
i remember thinking, there are things i am missing, like sex. things that theoretically _could_ be. but arent. i just felt so much like an outsider. and so i have been, but its interesting how you can feel something like that so clearly. it dawned on me kids were actually doing these things! right in my own town. kids i didnt know.
and never would. they were way to hip for me. probably too stupid too. now i love stupid people. life. its SO FUCKING WEIRD- how you can live it , in your way - and miss it too. like , clean miss it. like it sailed right by.
ok im still in mood, i know. tomorrow i write my lecture on discipline. im looking forward to it. ive been planning it in the back of my mind for days....
rehearsed today. 3 hours straight. its coming. its just im so smashed then at night. its hard to work on academic things,.,, i did though. before i called miller time.