Christ, I have been gone for a month.
This past month alot of things have happened. Things that have put in situations that i am forced to act. Not things that other people did but I did of my own doing. Especially financially. I have been devoting my time to something that should be low on the priority scale and because of that I have pretty much screwed myself over.
Its actually getting pretty close to when this account renews and unfortunately at this time I do not have the money to renew.
Its come down to a point in my life that I really have to set my priorities straight. Else my life will go nowhere. Numerous other times I have come to this but I never acted on it before because I am a lazy jerk.
Over this last year because of the things that I have put myself through I have become a raging asshole. Much like my father who I swore not to be like. I have lost alot of my people skills and a realistic perspective on life. Right now I seem to have stuck in place some super extreme logic screen that skews my vision of what is really happening.
All this I have done to myself and is 100% my fault. There is no way I can twist this to blame someone else. Things seriously have to change in my life. Cause if I dont then there i no need to worry about living to retirement or being happily married etc.
I am hoping and going to be trying to turn this negative outlook i have of myself and life into something positive. I have to.
This past month alot of things have happened. Things that have put in situations that i am forced to act. Not things that other people did but I did of my own doing. Especially financially. I have been devoting my time to something that should be low on the priority scale and because of that I have pretty much screwed myself over.
Its actually getting pretty close to when this account renews and unfortunately at this time I do not have the money to renew.
Its come down to a point in my life that I really have to set my priorities straight. Else my life will go nowhere. Numerous other times I have come to this but I never acted on it before because I am a lazy jerk.
Over this last year because of the things that I have put myself through I have become a raging asshole. Much like my father who I swore not to be like. I have lost alot of my people skills and a realistic perspective on life. Right now I seem to have stuck in place some super extreme logic screen that skews my vision of what is really happening.
All this I have done to myself and is 100% my fault. There is no way I can twist this to blame someone else. Things seriously have to change in my life. Cause if I dont then there i no need to worry about living to retirement or being happily married etc.
I am hoping and going to be trying to turn this negative outlook i have of myself and life into something positive. I have to.
Wondered where you had been hiding. Can't talk myself. I too am struck with the lazy virus