sick of myself. sick of everything thats in my head.
i'm not sure what i need to do but drastic actions must be taken.
on a more positive note, every monday night at my school we get guest speakers and they've been really amazing the past three weeks that i've been in school. tonights lecture featured the first female lecturers. they kicked ass. its so...
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i'm not sure what i need to do but drastic actions must be taken.
on a more positive note, every monday night at my school we get guest speakers and they've been really amazing the past three weeks that i've been in school. tonights lecture featured the first female lecturers. they kicked ass. its so...
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bob_dobalina:
those guest speakers are meant to motivate and inspire rather than make you feel small and insignificant. don't think for a second that those same speakers weren't (or aren't) saddled by the same doubts as you.
zenzero:
Not that I dont think you are special.. but Im sure everybody feels that way sometimes.. at least I like to pretend they do, it seems to help. Although rationalizion is always a handy tool I like to use it to turn the mirrors around when I am trying to find myself..
i hate insecurity. its unattractive.
note to self - stop that.
note to self - stop that.
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bob_dobalina:
feeling much better, thanks.
8bit_____:
embrace thy insecurity. overcompensating is unattractive. 
when i showed my ex this picture of myself he said i look like i found myself. a nice compliment i suppose. i wish someone had said that when we were getting our student ids made. we all had to be photographed and i kept talking and laughing so much that in all the pictures the photographer took i had a gimpy spaz look on...
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bob_dobalina:
my aren't we looking confident.. and HOT!
zenzero:
Student ID pictures are up there with Drivers License photos... I like your pic though youve got a "Talk Nerdy To Me" look.. 
um.. thats a compliment honest it is
um.. thats a compliment honest it is
i just spent an hour talking to an egyptian cabdriver. not that this is a remarkable occurence...its not, but i just always find it so interesting to run across different points of view.
its completely disconcerting to realize there is no absolute good and evil and that only history can judge with certainty the tidal shifts in the socio-economic paradigm we call the global community....
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its completely disconcerting to realize there is no absolute good and evil and that only history can judge with certainty the tidal shifts in the socio-economic paradigm we call the global community....
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8bit_____:
the raw and simple is that you are living in the hegemony -- the ruling empire of the time. It is through that lens that the world is initially viewed until we have conversations with egyptian cabdrivers. All the history of the little countries and the little people -- it's different from their view. That's what pisses me off about the news media, it reassures or at least tries to reassure people whatever that hegemonic discourse is, ie, ________are bad, terrorists are all ______, and basically how great America is. Im still looking for a date on when god blessed us or did we bless ourselves?
iamtony:
HEY where the fuck have you been? i miss you 
i'm happy. its weird.
its hard to feel introspective and thoughtful when i'm so happy.
its hard to feel introspective and thoughtful when i'm so happy.
iamtony:
65 degree's and happiness....
im happy your happy. please send up some of that happiness and warm weather my way....please
im happy your happy. please send up some of that happiness and warm weather my way....please
please someone tell me who the fuck cares about britney spears or what she does or who she fucks or why she got married.
celebrities should be killed and eaten. viva la revolution
celebrities should be killed and eaten. viva la revolution
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clinton62816:
Exactly, maybe not eaten, but cooked at least.
i have no clue why i am so attracted to him. how has this happened? and to make everything even more complicated i can't be entirely sure hes not an escaped mental patient. homeless, no credit cards, no phone, no car, absolutely no proof that he is who he claims to be. maybe fine for an 18 year old but hes 31...close to 32. i...
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bob_dobalina:
dunno.. moving in with someone always seems to set you up for a fall. the dog is the kicker for me b/c dogs have a nasty habit of knocking bongs over.
zenzero:
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you mind is strong
your query is wise
question him directly
put your mind at ease...
hesitation may be instinct
listening to your heart dosent mean ignore your mind
you mind is strong
your query is wise
question him directly
put your mind at ease...
hesitation may be instinct
listening to your heart dosent mean ignore your mind
i hate my ex. could anyone really suck anymore than he does? fucker
nothing like a friendly phone call from an ex-loved one to make you want to get piss ass drunk and start throwing things. it would really be so much nicer if we could just talk like normal people but we can't. or maybe its just me. i'm just an asshole. sigh.
nothing like a friendly phone call from an ex-loved one to make you want to get piss ass drunk and start throwing things. it would really be so much nicer if we could just talk like normal people but we can't. or maybe its just me. i'm just an asshole. sigh.
jiveturkey:
Yeah, I know someone that sucks more then your EX, FUCKIN MINE!!!!!!!!
What school do you go too?
What school do you go too?
iamtony:
hey baby, the visit w/ the girl went really well. we talked a couple of times on the phone, very breifly, like 1 minute or so before we met. then we met and decided on a resturaunt. when we were walking there she grabed my hand to hold it right away, which i liked alot, but was a bit surprised. it was like an hour into our meal and she asks me if she can kiss me 
, which i though was really cool of her to give me the green light. so we made out a bunch of times in a some upscale resturant in from of a bunch of loosers w/ suits and dress's. the waiter was kind of a stiff and i could tell he wanted us out of there. so we went out for a couple of drinks and then back to my hotel room. we had really good sex. i was tottally happy. the only thing that i am kinda bummed about is that she was she really didnt talk much. she was sooo shy and submissive, and she didnt't have that much to say and she never really asked any questions. at dinner i told her that i would fly her to new york and she was happy about that. she never gave me her # but she has mine. she never called me but she wrote me this one sentece email asking when i was going to fly her out. i thought that was kinda weak. i think that she is probably the shyest person i have ever met. she was soo timid, but still sexy. i am afraid if i fly her out for a weekend or something, we would run out of things to say right away?
i dont know.
hows the new boy?
whats your news year resolution?
, which i though was really cool of her to give me the green light. so we made out a bunch of times in a some upscale resturant in from of a bunch of loosers w/ suits and dress's. the waiter was kind of a stiff and i could tell he wanted us out of there. so we went out for a couple of drinks and then back to my hotel room. we had really good sex. i was tottally happy. the only thing that i am kinda bummed about is that she was she really didnt talk much. she was sooo shy and submissive, and she didnt't have that much to say and she never really asked any questions. at dinner i told her that i would fly her to new york and she was happy about that. she never gave me her # but she has mine. she never called me but she wrote me this one sentece email asking when i was going to fly her out. i thought that was kinda weak. i think that she is probably the shyest person i have ever met. she was soo timid, but still sexy. i am afraid if i fly her out for a weekend or something, we would run out of things to say right away?
i dont know.
hows the new boy?
whats your news year resolution?
i have to get my wisdom teeth taken out today. arf
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iamtony:
merry new year!
esmee:
i'm a dumb ass
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its tuesday. when did that happen...
there was this girl i was thinking about this morning on the way to work. she went to my high school and was probably one of the coolest people i've ever seen in real life...she wore cool makeup and stripey stockings and dyed her hair cool colors. and her name was sebastian. i thought that was the most amazing...
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there was this girl i was thinking about this morning on the way to work. she went to my high school and was probably one of the coolest people i've ever seen in real life...she wore cool makeup and stripey stockings and dyed her hair cool colors. and her name was sebastian. i thought that was the most amazing...
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iamtony:
grunted like a pig? thats kinda odd. i didnt know you were into half pig half men, you know....pig men? 
some one has to tell the stupid jokes around here, and it looks like i have taken the job.
hows it goin w/ the new boy in your life?
hey i just wanted to say merry x mas and i hope i wake up tomorrow morning and find you under neath my christmas tree w/ nothing on but a bow wrapped around your tiny little waist and little card tied to your big toe that says "to anthony, merry chistmas."
some one has to tell the stupid jokes around here, and it looks like i have taken the job.
hows it goin w/ the new boy in your life?
hey i just wanted to say merry x mas and i hope i wake up tomorrow morning and find you under neath my christmas tree w/ nothing on but a bow wrapped around your tiny little waist and little card tied to your big toe that says "to anthony, merry chistmas."
iamtony:
hey baby,
the appoitment went well, lots of pain
though. after that me and MADAMEX met for the first time and went to dinner and drinks. she's a real sweet girl.
i am in chicago but im flying home in a couple of hours and i will try and get a pic up when i get home.
glad to hear about you and your boy. are you guys spending new years together?
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the appoitment went well, lots of pain
though. after that me and MADAMEX met for the first time and went to dinner and drinks. she's a real sweet girl.
i am in chicago but im flying home in a couple of hours and i will try and get a pic up when i get home.
glad to hear about you and your boy. are you guys spending new years together?
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