So... its been nearly a year. I was in a box for 7 years... or an island, perhaps. Lovely island and all. But, in the end the island was sold. I was forcibly ejected.
So.. its been nearly a year since I found out my lifelong love was only a 7 year love. I dunno, I'm not really bitter about that. That doesn't bother me, really. Love and life are not linear things.
But what was normal in the evening
by the morning seems insane.
So, in that time, I've had two girlfriends. Both were tainted by my past relationship and ended because of it. Now, I KNOW it was because it was too soon for me. So, I've learned my lesson well. They were both incredible girls, I miss them both, I wish I had the strength at the time to be friends first and not pursue them into relationships like I did. Well, the first pretty much jumped in my lap and we still talk, but the second was really special and I miss her the most.
I also miss my "step-daughter" (tho me and the ex weren't married). My lousy ex doesn't want me to see her anymore for some reason, her phone is disconnected and she won't reply to my emails. Not to go into a rant or anything, but WTF? It was ok to be her dad for 7 years but now she doesn't think it would be "appropriate"?
Besides, my step-daughter truly dislikes the guy my ex left me for. Maybe, just maybe, that is why she acts up after visiting me.
Meh, I'm not looking for sympathy, it just REALLY pisses me off.
So, aside from celebrating the end of my 'marriage', what else is happening?
I had to tell a girl that I'm not ready for a relationship and I just want to be friends, and she tells me she can't do that. She says she cannot just be friends with me cause she'll always be wanting me and it will make her uncomfortable. DAMMIT. I like her, I need friends in this town, why why why?!?! I'm NOT that fucking hot or cool. Well, ok maybe I am, but shit, I need friends more, Lovers are too complicated for my simple mind to process right now.
Ok, here are some up-notes:
My roommate and I bought a real honest to goodness dartboard. I'm lovin' the darts.
I have Irish Creme for my coffee. Nothing like the hair of the dog.
Met a beautiful girl named Jill last night. Thats it.
Had more than one gay guy hit on me. Now, i'm not gay, but like I've always said, if a gay guy thinks I'm hot, then its gotta be true, cause they are the cattiest people in the world (at least the ones I know) and their standards are pretty high. Course, flattery is probably the quickest way to the sack, but I don't mind. I can say no
SuicideGirls... ahh, blissfull distraction
So.. its been nearly a year since I found out my lifelong love was only a 7 year love. I dunno, I'm not really bitter about that. That doesn't bother me, really. Love and life are not linear things.
But what was normal in the evening
by the morning seems insane.
So, in that time, I've had two girlfriends. Both were tainted by my past relationship and ended because of it. Now, I KNOW it was because it was too soon for me. So, I've learned my lesson well. They were both incredible girls, I miss them both, I wish I had the strength at the time to be friends first and not pursue them into relationships like I did. Well, the first pretty much jumped in my lap and we still talk, but the second was really special and I miss her the most.
I also miss my "step-daughter" (tho me and the ex weren't married). My lousy ex doesn't want me to see her anymore for some reason, her phone is disconnected and she won't reply to my emails. Not to go into a rant or anything, but WTF? It was ok to be her dad for 7 years but now she doesn't think it would be "appropriate"?
Besides, my step-daughter truly dislikes the guy my ex left me for. Maybe, just maybe, that is why she acts up after visiting me.
Meh, I'm not looking for sympathy, it just REALLY pisses me off.
So, aside from celebrating the end of my 'marriage', what else is happening?
I had to tell a girl that I'm not ready for a relationship and I just want to be friends, and she tells me she can't do that. She says she cannot just be friends with me cause she'll always be wanting me and it will make her uncomfortable. DAMMIT. I like her, I need friends in this town, why why why?!?! I'm NOT that fucking hot or cool. Well, ok maybe I am, but shit, I need friends more, Lovers are too complicated for my simple mind to process right now.
Ok, here are some up-notes:
My roommate and I bought a real honest to goodness dartboard. I'm lovin' the darts.
I have Irish Creme for my coffee. Nothing like the hair of the dog.
Met a beautiful girl named Jill last night. Thats it.
Had more than one gay guy hit on me. Now, i'm not gay, but like I've always said, if a gay guy thinks I'm hot, then its gotta be true, cause they are the cattiest people in the world (at least the ones I know) and their standards are pretty high. Course, flattery is probably the quickest way to the sack, but I don't mind. I can say no
SuicideGirls... ahh, blissfull distraction
meta:
I love the Fibonacci sequence.