So. My dislike of working in a hotel/corporate environment is beginning to come to a head. I feel like the food I'm making isn't important, and all in all, I really miss being in an independent restaurant that's "chef-centric". I hate that a restaurant manager has authority over me, where in every other establishment I've been in, the chef was over the manager.
Because that's the way things should be. I sets a tone, and allows real food to be made. If the chef wants to nuke the menu, and create a whole new one, he doesn't have to go through a committee to get it approved, and can take any item off. Even if it's the "most popular".
Who cares. I want to get rid of an item, because I'm bored with it and want to do something new. This just feels like... I don't know. For the most part, this job has been the right decision, but in the back of my mind, I wonder if it really was.
Will this really be something that helps me get to that end goal of "own my own restaurant"? Or will I not be well known enough in the city, to be able to attract investors because I was in a hotel.
And then there's the other bullcrap. I can't yell at anyone who deserves it because HR comes down on me for "not showing respect." I'm sorry, when I finally yell at someone for breaking a rule they've known about forever, they deserve it. Why should I be rendered without power to dispense that? If I need to make an example of someone, then I need to, and people will know to respect the kitchen and it's rules.
I really just wish I could figure out if this is the right place to be now.