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Who do I think I am?

I don't really know most of the time anymore. I spend days contemplating my life, where I've been, what I'm doing, when I'm finally going to understand. And then I think, stop concentrating on all the complications. Complications make my brain hurt. Its time to simplify.

So who am I?

A person caught in a constant state of transitional meltdown.
A woman who occasionally struggles with conflicting feelings of masculinity.
A lesbian with some heterosexual tendencies.
An artist trying to find my way back to the world of creativity I once lived for.
Someone who loves too much and too easily.
A person who has learned to hold back the things that don't need to be held back.
A child still grasping at a vague understanding of responsibility.

I am just beginning to realize the person I am. One thing I do know for certain: I need to surround myself with people who care about me, who don't take me for granted, who love me despite my flaws, who don't leave without explanation, who reflect the characteristics and ideals that I would like to see in myself.

I need artists, lovers, intellectuals, friends. Any takers?