Thursday Nov 06, 2008

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How in the hell people can show up in amazing numbers to vote in a groundbreaking new President one afternoon, then turn around ass-backwards and support the bannning of gay marriage in California absolutely blows my fuckin' mind.

Is "Change" really possible, when so many people are still subscribing to hateful opinion?

To me, all the progress shown with the election of Barack Obama is...
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Monday Nov 03, 2008

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"There are so many hammocks to catch you if you fall, so many laws to keep you from experience. All these cities I have been in the last few weeks make me fully understand the cozy, stifling state in which most people pass through life. I don't want to pass through life like a smooth plane ride. All you do is get to breathe...
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Friday Oct 24, 2008

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Just back from coffee with the ex. I played nice, acted fairly and went in with the best intentions. The entire conversation was polite, restrained and generally mostly bullshit. Any attempts I'd make to breach deeper issues, talk about emotions or depth or memories or ANYTHING really, were brushed aside or ignored.

I'm not really mad. But all I can do now is...
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clio:

hey, thanks for your comment! wink xoxo

Tuesday Oct 21, 2008

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There exists in me a great desire to step out and beyond these lines drawn in my life. It has never been a matter of rebellion or refusal of role, more an unspoken urge to somehow become more than I'm expected to be. And yet, I've nobody to impress, nobody to live up to. I don't aspire to become a great parent...
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Sunday Oct 19, 2008

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I'm finding it hard to get out of bed every morning. It all seems so trivial and silly, but since she left, I just can't see the bright side of anything. It all seems so damn pointless. I wake, shower, brush my teeth, maybe play some guitar. But it's just some boring rerun again and again, always shown in these muted shades...
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Thursday Oct 16, 2008

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I'm trying really hard to not become hard and bitter and angry at the world. But...

Friday Oct 10, 2008

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I spent the morning loading up the car. I can see my breath all the time now, and my fingers grow numb quickly in muted Autumn light. Dying leaves afoot; accusing trees whisper at me with every puff of Western wind called down from the mountains. It's Fall - the death of a year and the most marked change of any of my seasons. I...
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Wednesday Oct 08, 2008

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So this is how it goes, again. Familiar footsteps, or maybe more a lack thereof. A cool room, lowered lights and most of a bottle of something that burns just a little bit on the way down. Me and my love all around me, framed art and gigposters from yesteryear. Just blue jeans and an old t-shirt, barefoot and 3-days of beard on my face...
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Sunday Oct 05, 2008

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There are not many moments in life that are so perfectly cinematic. These are the times you will remember always, the quick flashes of brilliant colored memory that play out behind closed eyelids just before sleep comes for you.

I will remember the way the wind carried the leaves, out and beyond the riverbank to float just inches above swirling water. I will remember how...
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Saturday Oct 04, 2008

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The things you reach for do not have places to be held; this much is certain. Now it's begun again, this staying up late and waking early with hardly any sleep between. Before, there was someone, something. Now there is just the dying breath of summer and my beating heart, thick with clotted blood and all the reasons I have to call. I'm...
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Saturday Oct 04, 2008

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Is this cycle ever going to end? Am I ever going to figure it all out?

Heartache is the very worst, most debilitating, most cruel torment I can imagine. I hate this so, so much.
renna:

I hope you feel better soon, hun!

Hugs!
xo