hm...where to start....i had an amazing day today....i got home from work to find a cute boy in my bed, which always makes me a happy girl. michael and i spent all day tangled up together and i absolutely love falling asleep and waking up to him...it's my favorite....especially because today he was a little extra mushy and i was a little extra cheesy and playful...we had a lot of fun and he really made me smile...even when doing the hokie pokie in the shower lol.
it also kind of helped me register some things in my noggin. i've been thinking a lot lately about how lonely i have been and it was soooo nice to have someone to spend my day with...to tell me that he loves me before i fell asleep and to kiss me on the forehead when i wake up. i know that michael is not in the same place that i am and that is ok with me...but i am kind of starting to feel like i am growing up...and that i want someone to share my life with. i feel really comfortable with who i am and what i am becoming and i think things would be more enjoyable if i could spend more time making memories with him. Now no one read too much into this lol, i am not talking about wanting to get married or anything....i just feel like because i have lived on my own for 2 years and i have changed a lot that i am starting to realize the changes in myself and what i want out of life. It's kinda weird for me to say that i feel like a grown up because i feel like a child in so many ways lol...but i guess that just comes with time. It is really nice though that for the first time that i can remember i am content with someone and i dont feel a need to look at anyone else. god i am a cheese ball lol
anways lol....thats enough of the girly mushy crap....i need to get a gym membership i decided....and i need to actually use the gym membership....i live right next to a 24 hour fitness and its about to be too hot to go running...i also wanna upgrade my cable and get a dvr...and keep tanning....and pay off my credit card....i wish i got paid more lol...i just need to be better with my spending habits...i say it all the time but i really need to follow through...i cancelled my netflix so that will be the money i can use for the cable/dvr...as for tanning and the gym i guess i need to wait for my medic raise? or more logically i should use the netflix money for the gym becuase really thats the most important....i need to get my weight under control...now!....but i also need to make myself go to the gym and im so lazy lol.
well all right...i'm done gushing...goodnight.
it also kind of helped me register some things in my noggin. i've been thinking a lot lately about how lonely i have been and it was soooo nice to have someone to spend my day with...to tell me that he loves me before i fell asleep and to kiss me on the forehead when i wake up. i know that michael is not in the same place that i am and that is ok with me...but i am kind of starting to feel like i am growing up...and that i want someone to share my life with. i feel really comfortable with who i am and what i am becoming and i think things would be more enjoyable if i could spend more time making memories with him. Now no one read too much into this lol, i am not talking about wanting to get married or anything....i just feel like because i have lived on my own for 2 years and i have changed a lot that i am starting to realize the changes in myself and what i want out of life. It's kinda weird for me to say that i feel like a grown up because i feel like a child in so many ways lol...but i guess that just comes with time. It is really nice though that for the first time that i can remember i am content with someone and i dont feel a need to look at anyone else. god i am a cheese ball lol
anways lol....thats enough of the girly mushy crap....i need to get a gym membership i decided....and i need to actually use the gym membership....i live right next to a 24 hour fitness and its about to be too hot to go running...i also wanna upgrade my cable and get a dvr...and keep tanning....and pay off my credit card....i wish i got paid more lol...i just need to be better with my spending habits...i say it all the time but i really need to follow through...i cancelled my netflix so that will be the money i can use for the cable/dvr...as for tanning and the gym i guess i need to wait for my medic raise? or more logically i should use the netflix money for the gym becuase really thats the most important....i need to get my weight under control...now!....but i also need to make myself go to the gym and im so lazy lol.
well all right...i'm done gushing...goodnight.