emoly

i just watched the wizard of oz on tv....really reminds me of home and of my mom and nana. We used to always watch the wizard of oz on thanksgiving while the boys were watching football. im kinda bummed out for the holidays this year. i am not sure what i am doing for thanksgiving and it makes me sad. if i dont get invited to michael's like last year though, i decided that i will make the best of things and attempt to make myself a real thanksgiving dinner....and that way if i mess up i can eat mac and cheese and no one will know lol.

on top of that...im kinda bummed about michael...ever just have a gut feeling that something isnt quite right? we havent fought in a while and i have been really enjoying the peace lol...it kind of bothers me though because when we get along, i get very lovey...and he is kind of backing off i think maybe. i wonder if he's happy with me...and being honest with me....i hope so, because i love him lots and i want him to be with me because he wants to be, not because its a habit.

hm...time to go run i think.