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I was trying to think of a polite way to say I'm bleeding. Only remotely polite one was talking about "my monthly visitor" but that is SUCH a crock of shit. That would mean I have it monthly. Before I started progesterone and vitex in 6 months I had like 1 or 2 periods. Some people think that's grand but its not. I feel my body fucking with me. I am far beyond ready for a baby. People everywhere are avoiding getting pregnant. I want a baby so bad it hurts. This cycle was especially bad. I was an emotional mess. I didn't ovulate, and it was about 50 days long. Only reason I DID bleed was because I took progesterone (albeit natural progesterone). No help, my house looks like a baby already lives here. I am watching my friend's son now while she works. She works at the rental office in my apartments. They are cool enough to let her break up her lunch breaks and come nurse the baby. Hasn't had to have a bottle here yet. Which is good because he HATES it! Man, if you had the choice between a silicone nipple and a nice, warm titty? Yeah, that's what I thought. So, day 2 of watching him and we're already getting used to each other.

Brett's back from his little trip to help his sister drive home. I seriously got a headache from him talking about her. She can be very nice but she, in general, is stuck up. Quite snobby, if you ask me. Plus, she thinks she knows everything.. I don't want to sit here and talk shit, its not worth the effort. But I got a headache. I missed Brett while he was gone. A lot, in fact. I'm glad he's home.

Getting a new dentist. Ours is a jackass. Breaks everything up and puts everything off. Now what turned into 2 fillings and a root canal is 3 root canals. ALSO, one of those teeth is broken all to hell thanks to our dentist's laziness. I feel horrible because I wanted to show Brett that going to the dentist doesn't have to be horrible. Yeah, that didn't work. My dentist growing up was awesome. So, we got a new dentist. Someone local. *crosses fingers*

I miss getting out. I feel like a shut in, again. Someone come visit me