/sigh.
I'll be doing a Reiki session this weekend with a kind gent who thinks he may be able to help. I'm grateful. I'm working up the courage to walk into the dentist's office and ask him face to face---to please help. Mostly, I just sleep and avoid food....I'm quite scared of the 'no' he might give me.
My ex-best friend, well...not really....but the girl who use to be my best friend once upon a time, when I was that other girl....the one who functioned ---is leaving for Seattle this weekend. Me, being ill and reclusive and all, will not get to see her before she goes. Bah.
I've adopted three mice.
My words are being held hostage, so here's a meme:
1. DO YOU HAS A FLAVOR? Not that I'm aware of.
2. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE CONSTELLATION? I don't have one, at all.
3. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU HATE TO ADMIT YOU LOVE? Anything I love I don't hate to admit. Sorry.
4. EVERYONE ALWAYS WISHED THEY COULD LIVE DURING ANOTHER TIME PERIOD. WHAT TIME DO YOU WISH YOU COULD LIVE THROUGH AND WHY? The 18th century, for the fashion.
5. WHO WAS THE FIRST PERSON YOU HOOKED UP WITH WHEN YOU WENT AWAY TO COLLEGE? I didn't.
6. HAVE ANY RUMORS CIRCULATING ABOUT YOU? I'm not interesting enough. And if there were, how would I know? I'm a hermit.
7. WHICH OF THE "SEVEN DEADLY SINS" DO YOU COMMIT MOST? Envy.
8. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE BUILDING IN YOUR CITY? The University of Tampa/Henry Plant museum building. There are also some pretty abandoned buildings, and Tampa Theater is lovely.
9. WHAT WAS YOUR WORST HAIRSTYLE? The 4th grade bowl cut, and the accidental almost-mullet in 7th grade. Everything else was okay.
10. WHAT DID YOUR LAST KINKY FANTASY ENTAIL? Characters.
11. WEAPON OF CHOICE? A pen, maybe a strand of hair.
12. HOW DO YOU WANT TO DIE? (NO PUSSING OUT AND SAYING 'PEACEFULLY IN MY SLEEP', EITHER!) Tough shit, 'peacefully in my sleep' is the only way I'd like to go.
13. ADMIT IT: AT ONE TIME OR ANOTHER, YOU THOUGHT A CARTOON CHARACTER WAS HOT, RIGHT? Yes. I still do.
14. CAN YOU PERFORM A STUPID HUMAN TRICK? I can make noise by rolling my vein over my ankle. It's quite gross.
15. WHO'S YOUR FAVORITE CHARACTER FROM MYTHOLOGY? I loved unicorns, sidhe, succubi & incubi, vampires & other randomness.
16. HOW MUCH TO GET YOU TO STRIP? The price of dental bills. But ...why would anyone pay for that?
17. WHAT'S THE WORST CITY/TOWN YOU'VE EVER VISITED? I don't think I can narrow it down to a city.
18. BE HONEST: HAVE YOU EVER PLACED AN ON-LINE PERSONAL? Are you kidding? I place ads just to have freaking accquaintances. Where is a recluse going to meet anyone?
19. HAVE ANY MAGAZINE SUBSCRIPTIONS? No.
20. YOU HAVE BEEN SENTENCED TO DEATH. WHAT'S YOUR LAST MEAL? At this rate? Probably a smoothie. BUT, if I could suddenly swallow and my teeth would work----I would get Crab Rangoon, a huge salad, and white pizza with extra cheese and garlic butter, and a french silk pie. Also, a huge burger with bacon and smoked cheddar and horseradish, and some chinese food. Also, a grilled cheese, and maybe lasagna.
21. WHAT'S THE BEST JOKE YOU'VE EVER COME UP WITH? Nothing's funny out of context.
22. MOST DISAPPOINTING SEXUAL EXPERIENCE? The part where the sex happened.
23. WHAT DRINK WILL KNOCK YOU FLAT ON YOUR ASS? Any.
24. PORN: YOU WATCH IT, DON'T YOU? Yes.
25. ON THAT NOTE, OPEN YOUR PORN FOLDER. SHARE THE FIRST FILE NAME: lolz_001.jpg
26. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WRITTEN ON YOUR TOMBSTONE? Something pretentious and unintelligible.
27. IN YOUR OPINION, WHO IS THE MOST OVERRATED MUSICIAN/BAND? I don't 'get' The Beatles, or Bob Dylan, or The Rolling Stones. I'm not sure if that makes them overrated or not, though.
28. ABSOLUTELY WORST JOB YOU'VE HAD: Telemarketing sucked incredibly. As did some temping.
29. YOUR FAVORITE MUSEUM? I'm not sure.
30. FAVORITE SMELL THAT MIGHT BE CONSIDERED WEIRD TO OTHER PEOPLE: New Age bookstore, or the mall 9smell of new clothes/department stores).
31. ANYTHING YOU CAN'T EAT OR DRINK? Almost everything.
32. PERSON WORST AT KISSING: How would I know this?
33. FAVORITE NON-RELIGIOUS HOLIDAY: My birthday.
34. MOST TERRIBLE PAIN YOU'VE LIVED THROUGH: Exposed bone at the gumline/abcessed teeth.
35. BAD HABITS YOU HAVE: Self-doubt, paranoia, weakness, procrastination, detachment, fear.
36. LAST BEER YOU DRANK: I think the last time I had a sip of beer was some time in the mid 1990s. Yuck.
37. WHAT DID YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU WERE YOUNG? Writer, Veterinarian, Actress, Artist, Filmmaker, and...seriously, a Unicorn. *facepalm*.
38. FAVORITE CARTOON? I'm not sure I have one.
39. SUB-CULTURE OR GROUP YOU CAN'T STAND: There really isn't any subculture I can't stand. What I can't stand are loud, rude, obnoxious assholes---and those come in every subculture.
40. FAVORITE SWEAR WORD: I use 'fuck' quite often, but I'm actually more partial to words like 'harlot' and other antiquated stuffs.
41. MOST "TABOO" CRUSH YOU'VE HAD ON SOMEONE: I don't think any of them were really'taboo', unless crushing on fictional characters is considered taboo.
42. WORD FOR WORD, THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU SENT TO SOMEONE: 'No.' I'm very wordy, you see.
43. MOST MONEY YOU'VE HAD IN YOUR ACCOUNT AT ONCE? $50K.
44. LAST DREAM YOU HAD? There were bears in it, with orverlarge eyes and sharp, gleaming clwas. They were grinning in my window. To the other side, a smaller bear crawled past. There was a doctor just beyond, extending longish arms and shaking his head as he gave me medicine.
45. WORST EXAMPLE OF PROCRASTINATION YOU'VE DONE?
In college I used to go back to sleep and hold it rather than get up and pee.
46. MOST RECENT AMOROUS ACT IN THE BEDROOM? Um...7 years ago or something.
47. LAST THING THAT MADE YOU LAUGH LIKE A FOOL? I can't say. Probably something Makani drew.
48. HAVE ANY WISHLISTS? Not really. I'd like to see a healer, and have my teeth fixed so I can um, eat.
49. LAST THING YOU DREW? I doodled a dead thing. The last time I really drew was probably 1995-6.
50. LAST TIME YOU CRIED. I MEAN *REALLY* CRIED: Yesterday. Give me time though---today's not over.
51. FAVORITE PAIR OF UNDERWEAR? Red hipsters.
52. FAVORITE TYPE OF NOODLE/PASTA? I can't swallow noodles well. I used to love Mac & Cheese, pasta salad, ramen....pretty much anything.
53. IF YOU COULD PICK ONE THING TO BE A COMPLETE EXPERT IN, WHAT WOULD IT BE? Writing my world. Or magick.
54. FINALLY, WHAT IS THE WORD/PHRASE YOU USE WAY TOO MUCH? 'I'm sorry'.
I'll be doing a Reiki session this weekend with a kind gent who thinks he may be able to help. I'm grateful. I'm working up the courage to walk into the dentist's office and ask him face to face---to please help. Mostly, I just sleep and avoid food....I'm quite scared of the 'no' he might give me.
My ex-best friend, well...not really....but the girl who use to be my best friend once upon a time, when I was that other girl....the one who functioned ---is leaving for Seattle this weekend. Me, being ill and reclusive and all, will not get to see her before she goes. Bah.
I've adopted three mice.
My words are being held hostage, so here's a meme:
1. DO YOU HAS A FLAVOR? Not that I'm aware of.
2. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE CONSTELLATION? I don't have one, at all.
3. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU HATE TO ADMIT YOU LOVE? Anything I love I don't hate to admit. Sorry.
4. EVERYONE ALWAYS WISHED THEY COULD LIVE DURING ANOTHER TIME PERIOD. WHAT TIME DO YOU WISH YOU COULD LIVE THROUGH AND WHY? The 18th century, for the fashion.
5. WHO WAS THE FIRST PERSON YOU HOOKED UP WITH WHEN YOU WENT AWAY TO COLLEGE? I didn't.
6. HAVE ANY RUMORS CIRCULATING ABOUT YOU? I'm not interesting enough. And if there were, how would I know? I'm a hermit.
7. WHICH OF THE "SEVEN DEADLY SINS" DO YOU COMMIT MOST? Envy.
8. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE BUILDING IN YOUR CITY? The University of Tampa/Henry Plant museum building. There are also some pretty abandoned buildings, and Tampa Theater is lovely.
9. WHAT WAS YOUR WORST HAIRSTYLE? The 4th grade bowl cut, and the accidental almost-mullet in 7th grade. Everything else was okay.
10. WHAT DID YOUR LAST KINKY FANTASY ENTAIL? Characters.
11. WEAPON OF CHOICE? A pen, maybe a strand of hair.
12. HOW DO YOU WANT TO DIE? (NO PUSSING OUT AND SAYING 'PEACEFULLY IN MY SLEEP', EITHER!) Tough shit, 'peacefully in my sleep' is the only way I'd like to go.
13. ADMIT IT: AT ONE TIME OR ANOTHER, YOU THOUGHT A CARTOON CHARACTER WAS HOT, RIGHT? Yes. I still do.
14. CAN YOU PERFORM A STUPID HUMAN TRICK? I can make noise by rolling my vein over my ankle. It's quite gross.
15. WHO'S YOUR FAVORITE CHARACTER FROM MYTHOLOGY? I loved unicorns, sidhe, succubi & incubi, vampires & other randomness.
16. HOW MUCH TO GET YOU TO STRIP? The price of dental bills. But ...why would anyone pay for that?
17. WHAT'S THE WORST CITY/TOWN YOU'VE EVER VISITED? I don't think I can narrow it down to a city.
18. BE HONEST: HAVE YOU EVER PLACED AN ON-LINE PERSONAL? Are you kidding? I place ads just to have freaking accquaintances. Where is a recluse going to meet anyone?
19. HAVE ANY MAGAZINE SUBSCRIPTIONS? No.
20. YOU HAVE BEEN SENTENCED TO DEATH. WHAT'S YOUR LAST MEAL? At this rate? Probably a smoothie. BUT, if I could suddenly swallow and my teeth would work----I would get Crab Rangoon, a huge salad, and white pizza with extra cheese and garlic butter, and a french silk pie. Also, a huge burger with bacon and smoked cheddar and horseradish, and some chinese food. Also, a grilled cheese, and maybe lasagna.
21. WHAT'S THE BEST JOKE YOU'VE EVER COME UP WITH? Nothing's funny out of context.
22. MOST DISAPPOINTING SEXUAL EXPERIENCE? The part where the sex happened.
23. WHAT DRINK WILL KNOCK YOU FLAT ON YOUR ASS? Any.
24. PORN: YOU WATCH IT, DON'T YOU? Yes.
25. ON THAT NOTE, OPEN YOUR PORN FOLDER. SHARE THE FIRST FILE NAME: lolz_001.jpg
26. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WRITTEN ON YOUR TOMBSTONE? Something pretentious and unintelligible.
27. IN YOUR OPINION, WHO IS THE MOST OVERRATED MUSICIAN/BAND? I don't 'get' The Beatles, or Bob Dylan, or The Rolling Stones. I'm not sure if that makes them overrated or not, though.
28. ABSOLUTELY WORST JOB YOU'VE HAD: Telemarketing sucked incredibly. As did some temping.
29. YOUR FAVORITE MUSEUM? I'm not sure.
30. FAVORITE SMELL THAT MIGHT BE CONSIDERED WEIRD TO OTHER PEOPLE: New Age bookstore, or the mall 9smell of new clothes/department stores).
31. ANYTHING YOU CAN'T EAT OR DRINK? Almost everything.
32. PERSON WORST AT KISSING: How would I know this?
33. FAVORITE NON-RELIGIOUS HOLIDAY: My birthday.
34. MOST TERRIBLE PAIN YOU'VE LIVED THROUGH: Exposed bone at the gumline/abcessed teeth.
35. BAD HABITS YOU HAVE: Self-doubt, paranoia, weakness, procrastination, detachment, fear.
36. LAST BEER YOU DRANK: I think the last time I had a sip of beer was some time in the mid 1990s. Yuck.
37. WHAT DID YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU WERE YOUNG? Writer, Veterinarian, Actress, Artist, Filmmaker, and...seriously, a Unicorn. *facepalm*.
38. FAVORITE CARTOON? I'm not sure I have one.
39. SUB-CULTURE OR GROUP YOU CAN'T STAND: There really isn't any subculture I can't stand. What I can't stand are loud, rude, obnoxious assholes---and those come in every subculture.
40. FAVORITE SWEAR WORD: I use 'fuck' quite often, but I'm actually more partial to words like 'harlot' and other antiquated stuffs.
41. MOST "TABOO" CRUSH YOU'VE HAD ON SOMEONE: I don't think any of them were really'taboo', unless crushing on fictional characters is considered taboo.
42. WORD FOR WORD, THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU SENT TO SOMEONE: 'No.' I'm very wordy, you see.
43. MOST MONEY YOU'VE HAD IN YOUR ACCOUNT AT ONCE? $50K.
44. LAST DREAM YOU HAD? There were bears in it, with orverlarge eyes and sharp, gleaming clwas. They were grinning in my window. To the other side, a smaller bear crawled past. There was a doctor just beyond, extending longish arms and shaking his head as he gave me medicine.
45. WORST EXAMPLE OF PROCRASTINATION YOU'VE DONE?
In college I used to go back to sleep and hold it rather than get up and pee.
46. MOST RECENT AMOROUS ACT IN THE BEDROOM? Um...7 years ago or something.
47. LAST THING THAT MADE YOU LAUGH LIKE A FOOL? I can't say. Probably something Makani drew.
48. HAVE ANY WISHLISTS? Not really. I'd like to see a healer, and have my teeth fixed so I can um, eat.
49. LAST THING YOU DREW? I doodled a dead thing. The last time I really drew was probably 1995-6.
50. LAST TIME YOU CRIED. I MEAN *REALLY* CRIED: Yesterday. Give me time though---today's not over.
51. FAVORITE PAIR OF UNDERWEAR? Red hipsters.
52. FAVORITE TYPE OF NOODLE/PASTA? I can't swallow noodles well.
I used to love Mac & Cheese, pasta salad, ramen....pretty much anything.53. IF YOU COULD PICK ONE THING TO BE A COMPLETE EXPERT IN, WHAT WOULD IT BE? Writing my world. Or magick.
54. FINALLY, WHAT IS THE WORD/PHRASE YOU USE WAY TOO MUCH? 'I'm sorry'.
catdad:
You are cute. I hope hope hope you can get your teeth fixed. My dad had all of his teeth pulled and got dentures when he was about 19. That's how bad they were.
williamtrinity:
sorry to hear about the teeth. i hope they get fixed. pretty girls like you don't deserve unbearable tooth pain...