I believe I am on a pro-bono list for the healer, though there's an 18 month wait. If $1200 happens to fall in my lap I'll definitely go sooner. At least I think I will. It's hard to really guess what I'd do, given this dental drama. I did manage to write another pleading, pathetic letter to a local dentist in hopes that he might do some pro bono work. This not having back teeth thing is getting very dreary, especially when the open root canals are starting to hurt.
I've all but given up on writing, as I can't manage to think about anything but snot & teeth and panic attacks. I don't think I've written for almost a year, and though I'd love to try, the terror kills the creativity in me. But I used to have this awesomely lovely story. I do remember that much.
Also, there's a useless myspace quiz. It's here. It's kind of silly and goes on far too long.
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100.WHAT'S YOUR PROFILE SONG?
slytherin's not half bad by the parselmouths
99.DO YOU HAVE A JOB? IF SO WHAT IS IT?
yes. i sit in a cubicle and take complaints, fix typos, etc, etc.
98.MIDDLE NAME
martha. or marthe, depending.
97.DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON SOMEONE?
several fictional people.
96. LIED IN THE LAST 24 HOURS?
i don't think so.
95. BEST BREAK UP SONG?
abby travis' fuck you song is quite good.
94. WHERE WAS THE LAST PLACE YOU TOOK A PLANE TO?
new orleans, around 2002.
93. WHAT IS THE LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
pirates 3 at the theater, the queen on dvd.
92.WHAT MAKES YOU MAD?
my health, being broke, omg my teeth, bullies, mean, nasty people, time passing, writer's block.
91. WHAT WOULD YOU LIKE TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
a reasonably healthy reclusive writer.
90. WHATS YOUR Nick NAME?
aeri, eisdamme.
88. DO YOU HAVE A FRIEND OF THE SAME SEX YOU CAN TALK TO?
i don't talk all that often, but i'm sure i do have people that would listen.
87. DO YOU HAVE ANY SIBLINGS?
nope.
86. WHERE ARE YOU NOW?
in my cubicle.
85. FAVE COLORS?
black, grey, green, red, violet.
84. WHAT DOES THE 7TH MESSAGE IN YOUR INBOX SAY ON YOUR PHONE?
i have not a single message.
82. WHAT IS SITTING TO THE LEFT OF YOU?
the phone i am tethered to.
81.WHERE IS YOUR DAD RIGHT NOW?
somewhere in the city where he lives, i am sure.
80. DO YOU HAVE ANY KIDS?
no.
79. WHO IS THE 5TH PERSON YOU GOT A MISSED CALL FROM?
probably dennis.
78. CLOSEST BLACK OBJECT?
the keyboard.
77. CLOSEST SILVER OBJECT?
a cd.
75. DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER?
no.
74. DO YOU OWN ANY PETS?
yes. a kitty names galadriel, or grabby elf lady.
72. LAST TIME YOU LISTENED TO COUNTRY MUSIC?
maybe some time in 1992 when it was playing in someone's dorm roon on my floor.
69. WHAT ARE YOUR FEARS?
seriously? vomiting, choking, cancer, losing weight, breaking teeth, driving, people, being alone, growing old, confrontation, hurricanes, disease, roaches, getting a cold, snot, children, being yelled at, heights, clowns, leaving my home, traveling, etc etc.
68. WHAT CAN YOU HEAR NOW?
the obituary desk.
67. HOW MANY DRUGS ARE IN YOUR SYSTEM NOW?
prescription? 6.
65. WHAT ARE YOU WEARING?
a tee shirt with a foily skull on it, some crappy capris, a slytherin sweater, a clock bow in my hair and an insanely tacky copper belt with matching worn out shoes.
64. LAST PERSON TO COMMENT YOU?
the last person that commented.
63. DO YOU SING?
i used to. i haven't in a long time, i'm too scared.
62. SCREAMO OR COUNTRY?
or what? what happens if i just ignore the question?
61. ROCK OR RAP?
rock
60. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA?
chocolate
59. WHO DID YOU LAST CALL?
a customer
58. WHO LAST CALLED YOU?
see above
57. WHAT JEWELERY DO YOU WEAR DAILY?
anything that's pierced stays in. i used to wear my fake wedding and engagement rings daily, i don't now. i do wear my anubis jewelry quite a lot. id i felt better i would change my jewelry all the time.
56. WHAT ARE YOU DOING NOW?
eating some cheesecake and coughing.
55. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU SAID 'I LOVE YOU' TO?
i....don't know. maybe my cat?
54. WOULD YOU DIE FOR SOMEONE?
no.
53. LATEST THING YOU'VE RECENTLY LEARNED?
that my father will (probably) never change.
52. ARE YOU COLD NOW?
my hands are.
51. WHAT CAN YOU SMELL?
nothing.
50. IS ANYTHING BOTHERING YOU RIGHT NOW?
many things related to healers, teeth and snot.
48. WHAT ARE YOU DOING TOMORROW?
getting a shot, working, going to an appointment.
47. IF YOUR EX WANTED YOU BACK, WOULD YOU TAKE THEM BACK?
which ex? the one i live with now, or the one before that? i...guess they're both 'no' for different reasons.
44. BED SHEET COLOR?
green and grey.heh. slytherin pride, eh?
43. DO YOU LOVE SOMEONE NOW?
i don't think i do.
42. CAN YOU SWIM?
i can but omg i won't.
37. FAVORITE SMELL?
sterling, new age bookstore, orchid candle, perfume, burning leaves, starbucks, new mall.
36. EVER GONE A WHOLE DAY WITHOUT EATING??
yes, and it sucks.
35. United States OR CANADA?
as in where am i? united states.
33. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF YOU FOUND OUT YOU WERE ADOPTED
be even more amazed that my mother put up with me.
32. JEANS OR SWEATPANTS?
jeans.
29. DO YOU HAVE SOCKS ON?
no.
28. DO YOU OWN BIG SUNGLASSES?
i do not.
27. HAVE YOU CRIED SO HARD YOU MADE YOURSELF SICK?
no. i have cried hard and loud, but ....i'm emetophobic.
23. HAVE YOU RECENTLY TALKED TO AN EX?
yes.
19. FAVORITE TV SHOW?
i watch far too much tv. i love it all.
18. DO YOU LIKE 80'S MOVIES?
it depends on the 80s movie.
15. WHAT KINDA MUSIC DO YOU LIKE?
ethereal, indie, dreamy, shoegazy stuff, twee, gothy stuff, industrial, neofolk, new age, pop, trip hop, rock, and probably more. i love music.
13. BEST CITY YOU'VE VISTED?
i can't answer that without thinking too much.
12. BEEN TO LONDON?
no. i have been near it. once.
10. FAVORITE SUBJECT AT SCHOOL?
skipping. i guess drama, english and art.
9. BEEN TO COLLEGE?
yes.
7. FAVORITE TIME OF DAY?
it depends. i like waking up in the morning, and in the middle of the night.
6. EVER LICKED SOMEONES CHEEK?
you know, i'm not sure.
5. SEEN ALL THE SPIDERMAN MOVIES?
just the first two.
3. WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO?
having teeth, swallowing food, being well, driving again, going out somewhere, having friends, etc.
2. EVER GOTTEN LOST IN THE DARK?
no.
1. DO YOU SNORE/TALK/WALK IN YOUR SLEEP?
no.