Living for and in each moment is a wonderful thing until you have to choose between today's immediate moments and the ones that will potentially make-up the foundation of your future.
Maybe an obvious statement, but one that I, more than likely, could not have made only a few years ago.
I find myself in the position of having to decide between today and tomorrow....
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Maybe an obvious statement, but one that I, more than likely, could not have made only a few years ago.
I find myself in the position of having to decide between today and tomorrow....
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I got a call today saying that the drawing for my backpiece is 99% done. I plan to pay Mr. Miles Maniaci a visit in the next day or two so that I can check it out.
To sat that I'm excited is an understatement, and a serious one. Though, as with any good excitement, there are nerves. Obviously, I've been tattooed more that a...
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To sat that I'm excited is an understatement, and a serious one. Though, as with any good excitement, there are nerves. Obviously, I've been tattooed more that a...
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darklis:
Just take a piece of leather to bite down on and a flask of moonshine. 
You'll have a hangover and sore teeth plus a kick ass tattoo.
Clowns. How can so many of them fit into that lil car?
I'm really glad they hate mimes, though.
You'll have a hangover and sore teeth plus a kick ass tattoo.
Clowns. How can so many of them fit into that lil car?
I'm really glad they hate mimes, though.
darklis:
There's also Krusty's Kristmas Klassic. 
My sister (yes there is another one of my species,) went to clown school. No joke. Comedy writing and performance. Humber college, Toronto.
She obviously learned from me, I'm a natural.
My sister (yes there is another one of my species,) went to clown school. No joke. Comedy writing and performance. Humber college, Toronto.
She obviously learned from me, I'm a natural.
I'm lucky. Very lucky.
Why?
Not really sure.
How do I know I'm lucky?
Because a coffee and a pastry told me so.
Doesn't take much more than that to steer a life, sometimes.
The aftermath I'm living in right now seems to be an entirely different aftermath than the one in which I'd been living for a while. Years, really.
In this aftermath, I've...
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Why?
Not really sure.
How do I know I'm lucky?
Because a coffee and a pastry told me so.
Doesn't take much more than that to steer a life, sometimes.
The aftermath I'm living in right now seems to be an entirely different aftermath than the one in which I'd been living for a while. Years, really.
In this aftermath, I've...
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darklis:
Be careful when you suggest that I'm giggling like a nervous schoolgirl. You might just end up with a vision of me in pigtails, a plaid skirt and knee socks sqealing and flashing white cotton panties.
This could very well be my new favorite thing. 
This could very well be my new favorite thing.
darklis:
Suddenly, like a brick between the eyes....you realized this clown you've been talking to......had great cans.
Ha ha. Thanks, though.
You're not so bad yourself there, big fella.
Ha ha. Thanks, though.
You're not so bad yourself there, big fella. yup.
When a compulsion hits, and hits hard, a man's gotta do what a man's gotta do.
Sometimes moments of sererdipidous delight are no farther away than your nearest carry-out menu.
Can I get a fist in the air for those wonderful Pan-Asians - I don't think Pan-Asia can be found on a map, but it must be a land of dreams, filled with lusty...
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When a compulsion hits, and hits hard, a man's gotta do what a man's gotta do.
Sometimes moments of sererdipidous delight are no farther away than your nearest carry-out menu.
Can I get a fist in the air for those wonderful Pan-Asians - I don't think Pan-Asia can be found on a map, but it must be a land of dreams, filled with lusty...
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cklarock:
For real! Who have you played with? Who do you think you play like? Anyone I might have heard?
ghost333:
Yo dawg check these Garageband tracks. #1 done with guitar and bass (live tracks) and #2 pieced together with the GB inventory. Peace!
Sunday night and here I sit, shaking my head and laughing to myself.
Neighbors. Pfft.
Four hours! Can you believe it? Four hours. Every Sunday like clockwork - and loud. Soooo loud.
I'd be happy for them if it was four hours of loud, gleeful, boisterous lovemaking or even good, old-fashioned fucking, but it's not.
They fight.
Then they fight some more.
Like spoiled children,...
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Neighbors. Pfft.
Four hours! Can you believe it? Four hours. Every Sunday like clockwork - and loud. Soooo loud.
I'd be happy for them if it was four hours of loud, gleeful, boisterous lovemaking or even good, old-fashioned fucking, but it's not.
They fight.
Then they fight some more.
Like spoiled children,...
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darklis:
Your little comment made my day.
darklis:
I like the Duff man idea.
what the hell-
time to dust off the ol' girl and take her for one more spin.
let's see if she purrs like she used-a-could.
now
unless i'm wrong - and i'm never wrong - there's something warm and amber waiting for me under the seat.
with a little fire in the belly, its time to light it up one more time.
hold on kids,...
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time to dust off the ol' girl and take her for one more spin.
let's see if she purrs like she used-a-could.
now
unless i'm wrong - and i'm never wrong - there's something warm and amber waiting for me under the seat.
with a little fire in the belly, its time to light it up one more time.
hold on kids,...
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darklis:
Sinatra and acne boy shall be UNSTOPPABLE!
twwly:
Rhinestone flask. A+!
One day left.
It's been a good year.
I really don't have much else to say on the matter.
Those of you who have touched my life, be it for a moment, a month or longer, know who you are.
Whether you made me laugh, smile, cry, think dirty thoughts, or all of the above, at least you've made me feel. I can't sat that...
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It's been a good year.
I really don't have much else to say on the matter.
Those of you who have touched my life, be it for a moment, a month or longer, know who you are.
Whether you made me laugh, smile, cry, think dirty thoughts, or all of the above, at least you've made me feel. I can't sat that...
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sophie:
awwww! you're back! now appearing! for a brief time only!
i heart you.
yes. get them. and if the show ends way early then the night will be young and we can do whatever we want afterwards. yes?
i can't wait to see you this saturday!!!!
i heart you.
yes. get them. and if the show ends way early then the night will be young and we can do whatever we want afterwards. yes?
i can't wait to see you this saturday!!!!
sophie:
you can do it! you can be brave! don't let that vixen get you down!
These days - melancholy, introspection, apathy and a shameful lack of lust.
Apathy, as of late, has had a much bigger hand in my liife than I would like. I'm going out, seeing friends, catching up with some I haven't seen in years, but the machine that goes ping hasn't in a while.
I've had 'Ol' 55' by Tom Waits stuck in my head for...
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Apathy, as of late, has had a much bigger hand in my liife than I would like. I'm going out, seeing friends, catching up with some I haven't seen in years, but the machine that goes ping hasn't in a while.
I've had 'Ol' 55' by Tom Waits stuck in my head for...
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neyrissa:
Thanks for your reply in my journal. It was spot on. I'm dealing with manic depression myself.
It is VERY hard to admit to yourself that you have a mental illness at the age of 21. It's even harder to get family to deal with it.
We're getting there, slowly.
I just can't wait till I start the new meds. I can't go on like this.
It is VERY hard to admit to yourself that you have a mental illness at the age of 21. It's even harder to get family to deal with it.
We're getting there, slowly.
I just can't wait till I start the new meds. I can't go on like this.
sophie:
hey you! you're here! yay for that. you're a dollface. i am glad you're still here and hopefully it's a good thing in your life right now.
Two things.
Thing the First
I live smack in the middle of the 3rd largest city in these United States. Each and every night, my lights are the last ones on for a couple of blocks in every direction.
Thing the Second
About 90 minutes ago, I was in my house, doing whatever it is I do, here. I realized that my right arm was...
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Thing the First
I live smack in the middle of the 3rd largest city in these United States. Each and every night, my lights are the last ones on for a couple of blocks in every direction.
Thing the Second
About 90 minutes ago, I was in my house, doing whatever it is I do, here. I realized that my right arm was...
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sophie:
happy thanksgiving most darling boy.
yeah, it is a serious trip the move and the snow like never before and the challenges it presents and driving to work seeing (i swear i counted) along a highway distance of 20 miles, quite literally 19 cars that had slid off the road into the snow covered median or the side of the road. many abandoned, some with people still in them. at 8:30am.
and me in my little rear wheel drive truck with bags of concrete in the back because they were out of sand, thinking, "shit, and they've got kansas license plates. they've actually driven through this shit before!"
crazy.
yeah, it is a serious trip the move and the snow like never before and the challenges it presents and driving to work seeing (i swear i counted) along a highway distance of 20 miles, quite literally 19 cars that had slid off the road into the snow covered median or the side of the road. many abandoned, some with people still in them. at 8:30am.
and me in my little rear wheel drive truck with bags of concrete in the back because they were out of sand, thinking, "shit, and they've got kansas license plates. they've actually driven through this shit before!"
crazy.
april:
aww, thanks. happy t-day to you too, yep, tofurkey!
-ape
-ape
eidolon:
cats
eidolon:
some of them
I feel like I need to update.
Problem is, I don't have anything spectacular to report.
My time, since returning from Portland, has been fairly cerebral - more observing and feeling than interacting and doing.
I bet that sounds more melancholly than it feels.
I have something I should tell a friend of mine. My conscience carries a light burden by knowing what I know,...
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Problem is, I don't have anything spectacular to report.
My time, since returning from Portland, has been fairly cerebral - more observing and feeling than interacting and doing.
I bet that sounds more melancholly than it feels.
I have something I should tell a friend of mine. My conscience carries a light burden by knowing what I know,...
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hotcurry:
I'm so sick... 
I want to lay in bed all weekend.
I thought I would be able to cut this cold off at the pass, but it's just getting worse. That will teach me to run around like a crazy person as I did yesterday. When will I learn to take care of myself? 
I want to lay in bed all weekend.
I thought I would be able to cut this cold off at the pass, but it's just getting worse.
That will teach me to run around like a crazy person as I did yesterday. When will I learn to take care of myself?
hotcurry:
I'm sorry I haven't gotten in touch with you in a while. I'm not at all well still. And the fact that I've been running around and moving furniture to set up writer's offices hasn't exactly been doing me any good. I need some uninterrupted shut eye.
I hope you are well. Thank you for all the sweet well wishes.
I hope you are well. Thank you for all the sweet well wishes.
". . . and DJ Krush is the producer. I come from Illadelph where your health, you never take for granted. As hot as the equator in a cipher 'round the planet."
were your ears burning last night? cklarock and i were having a bit of an eidolon lovefest over the phone. "he's so cool, he totally gets it, yeah yeah yeah."