mmmmm, what to type what to say?
well work was dull as hell today, bout 30mins work for 8 hours never a good ratio really! but enough of that.
after realising many thinsg about myself and my life at the moment i've decided its time to egt of my lazy ass and do something with myself, to make all those who care proud and make myself a better person, and it never hurts to piss of the haters uh?
went for a walk aroudn the woods and river with soem of my buds, tonite, good relaxing fun, nice to get out and about, but the oddest thing happened ran ibnto one of my odl grilfriends, now let me jsut say we both hurt each other so damn much i dotn think we could ever be civil let aloen talk to each other again, but we've had sporadic contact at best for the last two years, now i beleiev thinsg happen for a reason and bumping into her as taken my mind of my reason ex and the nightmare that became, which was good thing to be honest! so what i've been searchign for is the reason we bumped into each other in this unusual place? what message lies hidden for me there?
a reminder of the hurt we shared and caused?
the companionship and closeness we had?
the seperationa nd reminder of why you stay away and apart?
or last but not least the love you shared and felt?
or the reminder of the person you were then? fun loving and freeish until life dragged it all down?
hey i was almost 6 stone slighter then than i am now, and that was 3 years or so ago?
crazy my minds a buzz., swirling thoughts all aroudn my head, must find what they say and mean? or just go with the flow of it all?
i know i love my ex mafalda so damn much always will, i know we'll never be together agian, so those thoughts arn't there just a joyful bubbling and freshness of seeing and just saying hello, i wanted to apologise to her for the hurt but couldn't maybe thats the message, let it free, say sorry and move on before it rots you away inside.
thats all
goodnight.
well work was dull as hell today, bout 30mins work for 8 hours never a good ratio really! but enough of that.
after realising many thinsg about myself and my life at the moment i've decided its time to egt of my lazy ass and do something with myself, to make all those who care proud and make myself a better person, and it never hurts to piss of the haters uh?
went for a walk aroudn the woods and river with soem of my buds, tonite, good relaxing fun, nice to get out and about, but the oddest thing happened ran ibnto one of my odl grilfriends, now let me jsut say we both hurt each other so damn much i dotn think we could ever be civil let aloen talk to each other again, but we've had sporadic contact at best for the last two years, now i beleiev thinsg happen for a reason and bumping into her as taken my mind of my reason ex and the nightmare that became, which was good thing to be honest! so what i've been searchign for is the reason we bumped into each other in this unusual place? what message lies hidden for me there?
a reminder of the hurt we shared and caused?
the companionship and closeness we had?
the seperationa nd reminder of why you stay away and apart?
or last but not least the love you shared and felt?
or the reminder of the person you were then? fun loving and freeish until life dragged it all down?
hey i was almost 6 stone slighter then than i am now, and that was 3 years or so ago?
crazy my minds a buzz., swirling thoughts all aroudn my head, must find what they say and mean? or just go with the flow of it all?
i know i love my ex mafalda so damn much always will, i know we'll never be together agian, so those thoughts arn't there just a joyful bubbling and freshness of seeing and just saying hello, i wanted to apologise to her for the hurt but couldn't maybe thats the message, let it free, say sorry and move on before it rots you away inside.
thats all
goodnight.
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how was your weekend?
I know you went camping!