e_loveless

today was a waste of a day.
the white walls of my room got to me so i spent hours filling them with pictures of better times.
i hung up on frances because i couldn't be bothered to listen to her bullshit anymore.
i drank far too much this week.
running into my sister in a local bar and having her show me off to all of her friends that knew me when i was 7 is too funny.
i realized that i have a massive crush on a girl that i've been super close with for almost 16 years.
in a bad way.
how fucked up is that.
i am beyond broke.
the thought of starting yet another new job makes my stomach turn.
i can't sit still.
i'm restless like hell.
i have so many fucking photo ideas and no one to fucking shoot.
it's so insanely frusterating.
i'm brimming with creative inspiration and just have to sit on it for a lack of resources.
i need to start shooting again before i forget how to.
it's pathetic how that same sentiment seems to ring true about several aspects of my life...
ah well.
take care children.