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good grief...
so i am usually on the upside of my bipolar, aka mania. mania is good, mania is fun, mania i can handle, mania is the reason i don't medicate. then today comes along... i tried calling my crazy tweeker mommie to wish her a happy mother's day n i couldn't reach her cell phone n no one answered at her work. the sadness set in n the closer i got to home depot, the worse it got. sadness crept into depression. by my lunch, i was looking for a rope (it's a good thing i don't work in a hardware store where there is lots of rope readily accessible...oh, wait... ) i finally reached my mommie at lunch, and she was having a bad day at work n when she heard my voice, she just started crying n didn't wanna stay on the phone. so i got of the phone n spent the rest of my lunch crying my eyes out. my ex used to et so mad at me when i would get like that, why couldn't i just snap out of it??? grrrrrrrr...and he wonders why he's my ex...

well, i'm slowly cumming around, but i'm not 100%

today sucked, tomorrow HAS to be better