durpa

i've noticed that even though my blog is infrequent, i do it a lot more often than other people. Fuck. Yesterday I Got completely hammered drunk on Tequila and Coke. Shitty Ass day at work, customers and employees alike were posessed by bad mood. I only worked a measly hours but the vibe was so bad my ex's condemned spirit entered me and I was so depressed and stressed with all my doubts to go back to california that it was either drink or die. i left about 1,500 voicemails to her saying how she ruined my life and left me to die. I've been so doubtful about moving back, i don't what else to do. it's going to take my all my money once again. i wish Something would happen that could assure me of one or the other. let's see if at least i get back on the music scene. start college.