durpa

i hate the fact that tessa smokes weed. it's so retarded. it bothers me so much. spent some time doing some research on my own about this stupid drug that my dad says destroyed his life. i couldn't find any conclusive or satisfactory evidence that weed is that bad and i don't have an argument. she doesn't find anything wrong with it, and i never smoked that shit once. i dont know how long our relationship is going to last before it becomes a defining issue, but my sails are set. i know where i'm going. i love going to catholic mass and singing and listening to their music. conference was this week and i didn't even go. spent an emotional week with tessa. my emotions finally flared out and i cried a lot. work is going god and i finally filed my taxes. everything is in control. my plans are going good. and i'm glad to find some peace in religion. my focus is to forgive jessica in order to stop my hate.