Anxiety beast turned into full panic attacks the last few days- even though I haven't left my apartment for pretty much a whole week. I turned the phone off and deactivated facebook, so it's just me and the brain chemistry in a staredown. According to old Eastern martial philosophies, a duel's outcome was decided before the first blow; the real fight is determined by will and the physical actions are only mimicking what's played out in the mind.
The chemicals are winning.
But I'm lucid for the moment, so we'll see. I sold three works last weekend, so with half going to charity that should be enough to frame a few more and pay some submission fees. If I can get this thing under control enough to work for more than a few minutes, I might even have some pieces to do those with.
The chemicals are winning.
But I'm lucid for the moment, so we'll see. I sold three works last weekend, so with half going to charity that should be enough to frame a few more and pay some submission fees. If I can get this thing under control enough to work for more than a few minutes, I might even have some pieces to do those with.
clio:
someone's gotta do it.