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I guess I can finally post on a PC, which is nice. Trying to stay positive in a shit day job, and trying to stay alive with a brain that refuses to comply. I have that down, I suppose. I dunno.

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Still here. Still alive, somehow. I've been working on a collaboration with a local artist, but it still feels lonely. Maybe this is just my thing.

madmaxthehatter:
I don't think feeling lonely is anyone's thing. It has to get better. 
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2014 started well. I lost one grandmother before Christmas and one after. I ended a five year relationship. Now I'm stuck in a city with no friends, no car, and no job. And massive depression problems, panic attacks, and several scary breakdowns.

I've got some assistance now, but this is as close to helpless as I've felt in over a decade. I've forgotten how to...
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So two months in, and as far as I'm concerned the site is fucked. Like I said, the look and layout is shitty, but that's not the issue. It's just not functioning anymore.

Everything loads like it's dial-up circa 1996. I don't know why I have to load a thousand pics/profiles/comments to see something from 3 days ago. Search is broad enough to be useless....
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New apartment is set up, electric was turned on this morning (after five days, which is like camping but more comfortable). No internet until next week, so I'm stuck using my phone for everything. It's frustrating as fuck, but it's also still a marvel of technology- magic, if you will- so I'm claiming my membership in club 'Murica every time I bitch about it.

Within...
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Since I'm still here (which is what happens when don't yell too loud, I suppose) I guess I'll throw up the occasional post for shits and giggles.

So two months at my parents' have been.. mostly dull? Stressful. We're all taking care of my grandmother. It's been rough trying to keep a routine in this town when all there is to do is take walks....
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tali79:
I think IrishWhiskey got kicked off. She posted the same thing on her blog and now she's been deactivated
aelin:
ouuu that was a wrong step of the community manager D:
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On second thought:

A new interface can be accepted over time. Knee-jerk zots, sudden "disappearances" and people heading for the door in response to those cannot.

There's always been a quiet silencing of dissention going on, but it's also always been mostly isolated girls or members under questionable circumstances anyhow. Notes on the inside get burned, and notes from outside the site quite often sound...
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alwyn:
sounds interesting what was that all about?
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Site implosions: I don't care for the new thing.

I get the need for sites to be friendly for devices smaller than PCs, but generally what looks good on an iPhone- simplified structure, block texts, etc.- looks clumsy on an actual computer. The large images that make good thumbnails on a smartphone require a lot of unnecessary scrolling or pageloads on a desktop. It looks...
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After a couple days worth of frustration and anxiety and an acute lack of sleep, I think I have a plan. My girlfriend's passed her GREs and will start her doctorate program in the fall. She doesn't want to get a place together for a while, to make herself be social with the department and so forth, which is fine.

So it looks like I'm...
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I got a wedding invitation in the mail yesterday.

Well, I didn't get the invitation; someone who lived here over two years ago got it. It looks like the girl's sister is getting married, or at least I'd assume from the names. In a mostly student housing area no one ever forwards their address, but you think you'd let your family know that you don't...
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There are times when I feel like I'm dreaming. Even when I know better, when I know logically what's real and what's not.. there's still that uncertainty. I make a most of my decisions from gut instinct. I think intuitively. It's a very reaction-based way to function, and I'm afraid of the day when I lose my ability to tell what's real and what's not,...
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