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The phoenix dying
Coughing
Sputtering
Trapped
Fading fast
She comes to me.
She sets a flame with a glance
A smile
A touch
And I
Am
Reborn.
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tovah:
i suppose your right... but it's not so much the place as it is the people that make li hell.
tovah:
Idealists want to search for Self, to become themselves, to have a goal, a purpose in life, to be self-actualized, to be and become real, to be what they are meant to be and to have an identity which is uniquely theirs, to become self-actualized into a perfect whole and to have an identity which is perfectly unique, to have meaning, to have their significance appreciated, or at the very least, recognized as existing, to have integrity, that is unity, with no facade, no mask, no pretense, no sham, no playing of roles, to be genuine, to communicate authentically, to be in harmony with the inner experiences of self, to avoid a life of bad faith, to live a life of significance, making a difference in the world, to experience life as a drama, to be sensitive to the subtle gestures and metaphoric behavior in relationships, to help others become kinder, warmer, and more loving human beings, to reform the world, to romanticize their experiences, their lives, and the experiences and lives of others.

In other words: This Is You
however, the hamptons must turn out better people than here... everyone here is in it for themselves (ok not everyone, but a majority)

cynical: believing the worst of human nature and motives; having a sneering disbelief in e.g. selflessness of others
this is me.


wink wink
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Well, looks like it's renewal time. Of course, it seems that every time my account comes up for renewal, I have no money, as in zero dollars.

So if I disappear in a few days, don't fret. I will be back, eventually. Probably a week or so at most.

I don't know how, but I think I will survive.
tovah:
hey, someone else who lives in hell!! Long Island sucks....
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I know you can see this, man. I know what's written here, and I know you've read it. Why shy away from it?

Let's be honest here. I do like her, a lot. I know you do, too. I'm not about to hide that, from you or from anyone.

Last weekend was the greatest weekend of my life. Just being with her, I knew I...
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morgan:
I like that LARP is one of your vices smile
nyhcx516:
lol, it really is too
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A conversation with the ex's away message:

DrBensina: Dare I ask what that's supposed to mean?

Auto response from (screen name removed): Fucking Brainwashed...it's like watching someone being tortured cannot do it anymore!

DrBensina: Because honestly? If that's even remotely about me, fuck you. If you really think I was swayed somehow by Shiloh to not like you, you're not only insanely paranoid, you're stupid....
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nyhcx516:
*hug*
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Greatest weekend of my life.

I don't even know where to begin describing what happened, other than the fact that it was incredible. Every moment. The sound of her voice, the feel of her skin, the touch of her hair... everything. I wouldn't trade it for the world.

Nikko, I know you're reading this: thank you for the greatest three days of my life. Thank...
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morgan:
Anyone who has a sword or a weapon can join up! We will kick ass across the world!
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It's over. 7 years, and it's over.

I know I needed to do it, but it still doesn't feel right.
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I felt it time for a name change.

Now I need to get a picture of me with my bloody lab coat to fill out the illusion.

"I'm not really a doctor, but that hasn't stopped me from performing major surgery."
scylla:
I understand the sentiment and I share it -- but as long as you put serious thought into what you're doing it's all good.
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So, you found me. Congratulations.

How?

Doesn't much matter. Not too many people know about this, so I'm going to be honest with myself here.

That's not going to change.
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Three things I learned last night:

1) I have, like, no alcohol tolerance. Really sad.

2) I haven't got the first clue about horse racing or foosball.

3) Rage Against the Machine should never have broken up, dammit.
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::puts on 2600 shirt::

I miss Sean. He's been on my mind ever since the wake.

Sean McGill was probably the single most influential person in my life, and now he's dead.

Everything that has led up to who I am now I can trace back to the day I met him. Without him, I wouldn't dress the way I do, I probably wouldn't have...
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Screw it, I'll post the picture after I format it.

If you really want to see what the hell I'm talking about, it's in my pics section, the newest one. Finally, I have proof that I did in fact get another tattoo (at least, photographic evidence, anyway).