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This is just the tip of the iceberg but I have really only told one person and this is a big deal. Exgf shows up at J's daughter's first birthday party. That was expected. What was unknown is how would it hit me. It was very stressful and she stayed for at 4 hrs and 15 minutes. I tried to stay longer so she wouldnt...
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I'm feeling rather fed up with this city, this routine that I have and the people in this fucked up city. Southern hospitality is fucking bullshit when its about Bitchmond. I gave in and applied for a job in Northern Virginia. There are many things that I dont like it about that place but I need to look at the big picture and it would...
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In less than 48 hours I will be "confronting" my ex gf at my friends daughters 1st birthday party. The situation is, as it stands now, that I am very pissed off at her and have legitimate reasons for being that way. I do not want to create a scene or have a public arguement at this party. I do want to be true to...
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Its rare for me to update at this time of day but I had some things on my mind. I guess in a way since I broke up with my gf, I have sort of been living like a monk. Living in seclusion in a sense, staying away from potential relationships, etc. I have basically been devoid off physical contact completely, not just sex. I...
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I got upset about somethings earlier today but now I'm sort of thinking things over mentally. Just in a serious thoughtful state of mind.

Its a beautiful clear night and I might drive out to Powhatan to look at stars for a bit. I have to look out for bears and rednecks.
I'm planning to go see the Pixies in Raleigh in a few weeks...
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This afternoon I heard something about Tom Cruise telling Brooke Shields she should not have take antidepressants and should have taken vitamins. Evidently he disagrees with using antidepressants completely. What the fuck?
Look I think you make pretty good movies but who the hell are you to give fucking medical advice. Yeah I have been on antidepressants so I have a problem with that. First...
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I remember reading a quote somewhere, I dont remember what it came from. It said "anger is a gift, which might have been intended to be sarcastic. I guess it sums up how I have been feeling. Things in my life need to change and anger seems to push me further along to do it. The thing I wrote about yesterday is just an example...
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My job was completely horrific today. To elaborate would wear me out entirely but one of many bad things that happened in this fucked up situation was a coworker saying that I "need to be a man". To that motherfucker I now say what I should have said. I have handled more shit in my life at my age then most people put up with...
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I've been kind of mad since this afternoon. Some bullshit that I had to deal with at work. I'll just say I'm finally learning not to be so nice to people at my job because they will push you to your limits of what you will tolerate regardless of what the limits are so might as well put a stop to it early.
Otherwise I'm...
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1 year older, No big deal really. But its definitely a point to look where I am in life and where I would like to be. Actually I should fucking be in Philadelphia again for the 2nd U2 show since its my birthday and all. I guess that same girl wouldnt use my arm as a boobrest for half the show again this time.
Seriously...
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