i have a friend, that's really starting to scare me.
bare with me..its long
this guy has had one of the roughest lives ever, although it may not look that way on the exterior. he grew up with a piece of shit dad who beat him, and his mother. and an equally shitty mom, who really didn't want him to begin with. one of his beatings became so bad that child protective services finally stepped in, and sent him to live with his grandmother. while he was living with his grandmother, his cousin, who was in her teens, wanted to experiment. he was molested while he was 7 or 8, and didn't really understand the severity of the situation. needless to say, he's been fucked in the women department ever since.
i'm not going to name my friend, because of the details included, so i will just call him fred, even though these details will reveal who he is to anyone who knows me in real life.
throughout all of fred's school years, he grew up as an outcast. he was the fat kid. the asthmatic kid. the kid with glasses. the kid with the high pitched voice. the kid who liked comic books and action figures. the kid who played trombone in the band. never really liked by anyone, fred had 6 people close to him, throughout his whole life. His neighbor jon, and me being the first and remaining two. one friend chose a girlfriend of one month over him, and became a complete asshole. one became a complete delinquint and a person fred decided it was best not to be associated with. wise choice, as tonight while at his house we got a call from the guy (he just finished an 8 month prison term, for reasons i do not know). another went crazy and moved away, and then came back, and then joined the airforce, and last fred heard from him, he told fred that he didn't really care about him or the town of visalia, and would be perfectly content if he never stepped foot in it again. and the last, his one and only girlfriend. she gets a paragraph all on her own.
this girl was trouble from the start. a leech. she was pure tornado bait, and i warned his grandmother that she was no good white trash, and would do nothing but drag fred down. she ended up staying around for 2+ years. this february, coming back from a trip to the coast, fred and heather were in an accident. entirely the other person's fault. he even admitted to the chp officer that it was. the accident was a moderate accident, and bot fred and heather sustained minor injuries. unhappy with the speed of the insurance process, and wanting to suck the system for all it was worth, heather talked to fred about potentially suing his insurance company. and called his insurance agent, and threatened the same. as a result fred told head he'd had enough of her and they broke up. the insurance agent also notified fred that they had put a provision on his insurance, that she would not be covered in any of his vehicles from that point on. they got back together, and broke up several times, as a result of her sneaking around and making more threats to the insurance company behind his back, and because she had no vehicle (19 with no license or car) they had no way to go anywhere together. after several breakups, and getting back together, one night she called, and left fred a message on his cell phone. something along these lines "fred, i just wanted to let you know that i've been cheating on you with kevin (a guy from her work). you've accused me, of lying, but your whole life is a lie. you are always gonna live under your grandmother's shadow, and will never amount to anything besides an enormous loser. and by the way, kevin has a bigger dick and is better in bed" (i did not make this up. i listened to the message myself). he hasn't spoken to her since, although she's tried several times to get him back through random phone calls that went unanswered and unanswered ims and away messages.
that brings us to his grandmother. his grandmother has always babied him, since the day she started taking care of him. she has never let him do anything on his own. always been the one helping him study. reviewing all his homework. prepairing resumes. filling out anything he could have filled out on his own (outside of schoolwork that is). doing anything and everything for him. i never watched but i'm convinced she held his dick while he pissed. she would walk outside and watch him to make sure he made it alright to his friend jon's house, which was 2 houses over, and across the street, up until he was 16. now he's 21 and, although he would never admit it, feels he couldn't make it in the world without her, even though he resents her, and can not stand to be around her. although i happen to be very good friends with his grandmother as well, sharing any of my views on this would kill my relationship between both, fred and i, and fred's grandmother and i.
there are 2 things currently in fred's life that interest him/keep him entertained. his car, and video gaming. last year fred bought a mustang mach 1 for around 40,000. and he's very proud of that car. or was, until it got into that accident. but fred is still locked into HIGH car payments, and insurance payments for the next 4 years. so he knows he will be living with his grandmother until then, at least. his other love, the video games, he owns both xbox and ps2. and has about 20-30 games for each console. he has a fast computer, and countless games for that as well. so between driving his car around, and playing video games. he does little else besides sleep. (he's collecting unemployment at the moment as he was let go from his job as a car salesman for those of you wondering how he paid for anything)
fred recently purchased a game that gave him a demo for counterstrike 2. and for the first month, he played it nonstop. and i mean NON STOP. he slept probably 4-6 hours a night, and with minimal errand running, the rest of the time was spent on the computer playing this game. as a result of this month long binge, he developed a condition in his right hand. i'm not exactly sure what it is, all i know is that it causes him lots of pain, and prevents him from both gaming, and driving manual (which is what the mustang is). without these two things, fred has slipped into a bout of self reflection, and doubt. and this is what is starting to scare me.
he keeps wishing for another woman to come along, but approaches it all the wrong way. he feels that his blessed genitalia, and nice car, and willingness to spend money on girls will attract women. but he has the worst social skills on the planet, which prevent him from even being able to talk to any of them .
he's starting to realize that although he has tons of material possessions, he has nothing. he's dropped out of college, even though he is probably the most intelligent person i've ever associated with. he has no job, nor the ability to work under someone, as he is constantly questioning everything that he is told to do.
my last few conversations with him have been rather frightening, and its gotten to the point where its really bothering me. he lives in a very conservative, pro-gun law, gun carrying household. tonight he mentioned his desire to sell off everything he owned, and pay off his remaining debts and end it all. i wish there was some way i could approach him, or his grandmother and suggest he talk to someone, but both of them would resent me for it.
i really don't know what to do, besides, be around, and try to assure him that there is someone and something waiting for him.
and to any of my 3-d friends that are reading this, this is why i haven't been around much the past few weeks.
bare with me..its long
this guy has had one of the roughest lives ever, although it may not look that way on the exterior. he grew up with a piece of shit dad who beat him, and his mother. and an equally shitty mom, who really didn't want him to begin with. one of his beatings became so bad that child protective services finally stepped in, and sent him to live with his grandmother. while he was living with his grandmother, his cousin, who was in her teens, wanted to experiment. he was molested while he was 7 or 8, and didn't really understand the severity of the situation. needless to say, he's been fucked in the women department ever since.
i'm not going to name my friend, because of the details included, so i will just call him fred, even though these details will reveal who he is to anyone who knows me in real life.
throughout all of fred's school years, he grew up as an outcast. he was the fat kid. the asthmatic kid. the kid with glasses. the kid with the high pitched voice. the kid who liked comic books and action figures. the kid who played trombone in the band. never really liked by anyone, fred had 6 people close to him, throughout his whole life. His neighbor jon, and me being the first and remaining two. one friend chose a girlfriend of one month over him, and became a complete asshole. one became a complete delinquint and a person fred decided it was best not to be associated with. wise choice, as tonight while at his house we got a call from the guy (he just finished an 8 month prison term, for reasons i do not know). another went crazy and moved away, and then came back, and then joined the airforce, and last fred heard from him, he told fred that he didn't really care about him or the town of visalia, and would be perfectly content if he never stepped foot in it again. and the last, his one and only girlfriend. she gets a paragraph all on her own.
this girl was trouble from the start. a leech. she was pure tornado bait, and i warned his grandmother that she was no good white trash, and would do nothing but drag fred down. she ended up staying around for 2+ years. this february, coming back from a trip to the coast, fred and heather were in an accident. entirely the other person's fault. he even admitted to the chp officer that it was. the accident was a moderate accident, and bot fred and heather sustained minor injuries. unhappy with the speed of the insurance process, and wanting to suck the system for all it was worth, heather talked to fred about potentially suing his insurance company. and called his insurance agent, and threatened the same. as a result fred told head he'd had enough of her and they broke up. the insurance agent also notified fred that they had put a provision on his insurance, that she would not be covered in any of his vehicles from that point on. they got back together, and broke up several times, as a result of her sneaking around and making more threats to the insurance company behind his back, and because she had no vehicle (19 with no license or car) they had no way to go anywhere together. after several breakups, and getting back together, one night she called, and left fred a message on his cell phone. something along these lines "fred, i just wanted to let you know that i've been cheating on you with kevin (a guy from her work). you've accused me, of lying, but your whole life is a lie. you are always gonna live under your grandmother's shadow, and will never amount to anything besides an enormous loser. and by the way, kevin has a bigger dick and is better in bed" (i did not make this up. i listened to the message myself). he hasn't spoken to her since, although she's tried several times to get him back through random phone calls that went unanswered and unanswered ims and away messages.
that brings us to his grandmother. his grandmother has always babied him, since the day she started taking care of him. she has never let him do anything on his own. always been the one helping him study. reviewing all his homework. prepairing resumes. filling out anything he could have filled out on his own (outside of schoolwork that is). doing anything and everything for him. i never watched but i'm convinced she held his dick while he pissed. she would walk outside and watch him to make sure he made it alright to his friend jon's house, which was 2 houses over, and across the street, up until he was 16. now he's 21 and, although he would never admit it, feels he couldn't make it in the world without her, even though he resents her, and can not stand to be around her. although i happen to be very good friends with his grandmother as well, sharing any of my views on this would kill my relationship between both, fred and i, and fred's grandmother and i.
there are 2 things currently in fred's life that interest him/keep him entertained. his car, and video gaming. last year fred bought a mustang mach 1 for around 40,000. and he's very proud of that car. or was, until it got into that accident. but fred is still locked into HIGH car payments, and insurance payments for the next 4 years. so he knows he will be living with his grandmother until then, at least. his other love, the video games, he owns both xbox and ps2. and has about 20-30 games for each console. he has a fast computer, and countless games for that as well. so between driving his car around, and playing video games. he does little else besides sleep. (he's collecting unemployment at the moment as he was let go from his job as a car salesman for those of you wondering how he paid for anything)
fred recently purchased a game that gave him a demo for counterstrike 2. and for the first month, he played it nonstop. and i mean NON STOP. he slept probably 4-6 hours a night, and with minimal errand running, the rest of the time was spent on the computer playing this game. as a result of this month long binge, he developed a condition in his right hand. i'm not exactly sure what it is, all i know is that it causes him lots of pain, and prevents him from both gaming, and driving manual (which is what the mustang is). without these two things, fred has slipped into a bout of self reflection, and doubt. and this is what is starting to scare me.
he keeps wishing for another woman to come along, but approaches it all the wrong way. he feels that his blessed genitalia, and nice car, and willingness to spend money on girls will attract women. but he has the worst social skills on the planet, which prevent him from even being able to talk to any of them .
he's starting to realize that although he has tons of material possessions, he has nothing. he's dropped out of college, even though he is probably the most intelligent person i've ever associated with. he has no job, nor the ability to work under someone, as he is constantly questioning everything that he is told to do.
my last few conversations with him have been rather frightening, and its gotten to the point where its really bothering me. he lives in a very conservative, pro-gun law, gun carrying household. tonight he mentioned his desire to sell off everything he owned, and pay off his remaining debts and end it all. i wish there was some way i could approach him, or his grandmother and suggest he talk to someone, but both of them would resent me for it.
i really don't know what to do, besides, be around, and try to assure him that there is someone and something waiting for him.
and to any of my 3-d friends that are reading this, this is why i haven't been around much the past few weeks.
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Hang in there. He's lucky that he has u, at least.