i'm listening to johhny cash "CASH" - one of the greatest new albums i've heard in a long time.
i'm waiting for my husband to come home for lunch.
after lunch i'm going to take the beast to petsmart for greenies, cat litter, cat food, and a new couple of toys for the beast. he likes to be the one to pick them out.
then i have to fold the laundry and put it away and unpack from the vegas vacation - FINALLY!
i think i have not unpacked b/c mentally i don't want to let go of the trip.
have you ever loved two people at the same time?
have you ever loved one of each sex at the same time?
my husband is my whole heart, but i am desperately in love w/ my bestfriend - we'll cal her skyy. she's perfect. we're perfect for each other. and i know i 'm in that pink, agony and ecstasy stage of love in the beginning where all you can see or talk a/b or think a/b is that person. which is not to say that i expect my love fo r herwill ever fade, but right now it's different from my love for hubby.
needless to say my mind is a little befuddled right now.
she's 2,000 miles away and i'm so sad i can hardly stand it right now. we had a misunderstanding in vegas - we both want the same thing from each other - to be together - but it happened all wrong and she thought i was rejecting her and then both our hearts were broken. and now we understand each other and all i can fantasize a/b is our first "date" and drinking vodka and iced tea while we lie in bed and watch romantic comedies in our bedpants and . . .
and it hurts my heart that she's so far away. and hubby understands - he knows. i'd never keep a secret from him. but i also know i make him feel bad if i sit around depressed over someone i don't have when i have him at my side.
my brain is short-circuiting and my heart is doing sommersaults.
i need a vacation - either in a nice quiet sanitarium, or on a deserted tropical island w/ my two loves.
sigh.
i wish there was an icon for crazy.
this is dj signing out.
i'm waiting for my husband to come home for lunch.
after lunch i'm going to take the beast to petsmart for greenies, cat litter, cat food, and a new couple of toys for the beast. he likes to be the one to pick them out.
then i have to fold the laundry and put it away and unpack from the vegas vacation - FINALLY!
i think i have not unpacked b/c mentally i don't want to let go of the trip.
have you ever loved two people at the same time?
have you ever loved one of each sex at the same time?
my husband is my whole heart, but i am desperately in love w/ my bestfriend - we'll cal her skyy. she's perfect. we're perfect for each other. and i know i 'm in that pink, agony and ecstasy stage of love in the beginning where all you can see or talk a/b or think a/b is that person. which is not to say that i expect my love fo r herwill ever fade, but right now it's different from my love for hubby.
needless to say my mind is a little befuddled right now.
she's 2,000 miles away and i'm so sad i can hardly stand it right now. we had a misunderstanding in vegas - we both want the same thing from each other - to be together - but it happened all wrong and she thought i was rejecting her and then both our hearts were broken. and now we understand each other and all i can fantasize a/b is our first "date" and drinking vodka and iced tea while we lie in bed and watch romantic comedies in our bedpants and . . .
and it hurts my heart that she's so far away. and hubby understands - he knows. i'd never keep a secret from him. but i also know i make him feel bad if i sit around depressed over someone i don't have when i have him at my side.
my brain is short-circuiting and my heart is doing sommersaults.
i need a vacation - either in a nice quiet sanitarium, or on a deserted tropical island w/ my two loves.
sigh.
i wish there was an icon for crazy.
this is dj signing out.
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razor13:
the first record i evr owned was a johnny cash album my g-ma gave me for my b-day/xmas. it was the man in black. i really like the new stuff, too, i lost my wife in vegas, hope your love works out for you...