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hi everyone.
it's been a long time.
something happened a long time ago and i just couldn't look at these girls any more. i know it kind of goes completely against what SG is all a/b, but i would look and just feel so awful a/b myself. i mean, i guess if what you aspire to and find beautiful are hollywood...
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_v_:
ha, good story
i have been trying to get my neice to refer to her grandfather as dummy
it isn't working out so well
lucky1336929:
holy schnikeys, you're back! eeek

congratulations on your impending motherhood. that is awesome!

im drawing an effin blank here, but i'll write more later.

welcome back. wink
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went to the Nutcracker on friday and dinner at my favorite french restaurant.
went to the Messiah on sunday and brunch w/ friends.
got my shopping done yesterday and wrapping done today.
saw The Return of the King last night. altogether NOT nearly enough orlando bloom in this movie! oh well, when he was on screen he was more beautiful than anyone, except maybe liv...
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_v_:
you have been gone way too long
siara:
how are you???? long time no *speak*!!
hope you are well sweetie!
skull XX kiss
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so, i'm finally feelin' christmas. got the tree up and decorated. playin' some christmas music. got some antlers for the dog to wear - how cute is he?! got most of my shopping done. now i just need to get my butt to the post office. yuck.

what is it a/b me that seeks out the stress and worry in any situation? on a...
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lucky1336929:
merry christmas, sweetheart. and NO WORRYING! biggrin

--lucky
racer_x:
Merry Xmas!...this year i am sitting home with the dog..the girly is in Colorado Springs visiting her folks...so not much for me to do.i really don't feel like seeing my family, so I'm not going to. oh well. Christmas day is going to consist of me getting shitty on mulled wine and thinking about last years Christmas..
anyway, kiss the critters for me and take care of yourself... smile
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oh gosh.
still sick.
it probably didn't help that i went out all night 2 saturdays in a row. i swear i'm getting too old for this shit.
how sad is that?
i'm totally not in the christmas spirit this year. i have NO ideas for gifts for anyone. maybe when i get my tree put up it will cheer me up...
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pixbix:
That book does sound amazing. I want to read it next. I'm even ging to write down the name becuase I know I'll never remember it.
racer_x:
I'm an idiot and accidentally removed you from my friend list... frown
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i am sick on my day off! that doesn't make me happy. mad
oh well, i'm not as sick as some at work, so i should be grateful. i just got some new lip stuff in the mail and something that should help me sleep. that's always welcome.
i love sitting around in my pj's and bathrobe all day.
maybe i'll...
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djbq:
has anybody else noticed that the SG panties are the cutest in the world - and they look adorable and hot on any body?
i want some.
but i think you can only get them if you model.
oh well, i guess i'll just have to admire them from afar.

so, last night i had the strangest dreams - one was that my alchoholic sister was drinking again and totally out of control and not communicating w/ anyone in our family so no one knew if she was ok or not. and the second one was was a/b me and that guy - you know the guy, from Angel, his enemy who was a lawyer at wolfram and hart, who was in love w/ darla and got his hand chopped off? . . . oh! Lindsay! so, me and him in the super duper high-tech building full of foreign diplomats - like the UN of the future, and we had done something bad and "they" were after us and we kept trying to escape from this building but every door just led us deeper inside and every time we had 2 seconds of safety all i wanted to do was fuck him! and it was great!
too bad hubby had already left for work by the time i woke up. frown
i guess that's why i came here first thing in the morning . . .

you know what would be really nice? to be able to actually live each day just for itself. just be in the moment - and not just talk a/b it. to not dwell in the past and stop worrying a/b the future and just live for today.
how do i do that?

i'm still sick. puke
it's really weird. i no longer have the body aches and chills and headache and queasiness, but my throat is just burning and it doesn't get any better - what is this?

i need to decide what i'm going to make for dinner tonight. and we're supposed to bring a fruit pie to dinner tomorrow night, but i don't bake, and i feel bad bringing something store-bought. i guess i should try to find a nice bakery and get something good.

ok, i guess that's enough random thoughts for the moment.
off to boil more water for my throat.
ciao
vega
lucky1336929:
feel better, yo!

i always used to get sick over thanksgiving break when i was a kid. man that sucked. a four day weekend that i could have spent causing mischief, instead im deathly ill sucking down chicken noodle soup like it has rum in it. mad
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so, the crystal method show was GREAT! biggrin
hung out w/ some good friends, danced my ass off, felt cute for the first time in a long time, talked to my best friend and made her jealous . . .
had a decent day at work. it was so great of my friend kelly to work my morning for me! i didn't get to bed till a/b...
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lucky1336929:
hi sweetie! i was so happy to get that note from you. wink sounds like things are pretty good right now. im glad. im crazy busy these days but class will be over on december 8th. then im taking an improv class starting in january and hafta figure out which teaching/counseling program to apply to and how to afford it and fit it around working 45 hours a week. hope you have a fab turkey day. catch you later.
racer_x:
hey there!

grea to hear from you...i hope you have a great holiday and alll,
things have been looking up for me...sorta maybe got back together with someone i thought I lost forever..she's a doll.
i am presently scrubbing my kitchen and then taking Sweetpea out foir a walk at the dogpark..I hope that nasty bastard dog isn't there when I go. 2 times this dog has bitten my dog, and two times has bitten me....i told his owner that next time his dog gets a broken neck mad well the first time he bit my dog, my dog thought he was playing and wasn't redy, the second time the dominance dance started and his dog bit mine on the shoulder and chest.. then my dog grabbed him by the face and neck and did the usual bulldog thing , I got right in the middle and got him off, nd when I separated the dogs , the other one came acrooss 15 ft. and bit me on the forearm! At that point I sid "fuck it" and dropped the lesh and my dog (seeing me get bit) bull rushed him into the ground and kicked his mongrel ass but good...Some people were alrmed I did tht , and said i needed to discipline my dog (!) yeh right discipline him for doing his job protecting me the dude. Fuck that! any way.


miss you too. ! woot1 kiss
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have you seen Finding Nemo?
i just watched it last night - it was the cutest thing ever wink
Dory is hysterical - i've been speaking whale all day - and that little pudgy purple squidy thing - so cute!
ok. sunny day. walk dog. buy bagels. finish book. laundry. yoga. dinner? what to make for dinner?
i've been listening to a lot of neil diamond lately. it...
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fuckyoudeath:
YOU HAVE A SHEEPDOG!!!

so do I.
asvetic:
Neil Diamond huh? well you should see Saving Silverman, which you probably already have, but you should see it again, Jack Black, R. Lee Emory, Steve Zahn, and Jason Biggs, funny, funny, twisted, funny movie.

Finding Nemo was very good, I was choking back the tears...
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hey everyone. sorry i've been MIA. part of the fault lies w/ SG though - the site's been totally fucked up and i couldn't get on. but now i figured it out, so it's all good.
glad to report that i'm slightly happier than i was when i wrote my last entry. i apologize that i just don't have the...
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_v_:
i like and dislike this whole deciding what goes where
and now there are two other people to consult with
well
they are laid back
but there is so much space
and i don't know where to put what
freakpirate:
There are always other things. Always always always. Girly stuff, as per usual. School has actually been going very well. I'm studying theater production, which I'm absolutely loving.

I hope you get things back on track and happy again. Happy is good. smile

I spent two hours screwing around with Photoshop last night and I think I've got my tattoo all figured out. I figure if I can bring in something rough it will be easier for the artist to draw something up. I'm going in this afternoon to talk to him. I'm going to get a sacred heart on each shoulder but instead of having it shaded in it's going to look like a nautical star. It looks really cool. At least I think so. tongue
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i've only been back from vacation for a few days and i already hate my job again.

got to see skyy.
she showed up on my doorstep last sat. night. went to see dj icey. drank too much. got to see her mon and tues too. not nearly enough. i think we'll move back east. some things are more important than others.

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sebast:
I wish i could live like the jetson's too...flying cars are cool shocked

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telesis:
hi vega - i hope things are good with you. i've been a total bum lately and have not really had the energy to do anything outside of my little bubble!? ie. sg. i'm not quite sure why, but things happen for a reason and i just sort of went with it. i feel really good now and was wondering how all my sg friends are holding up. i miss pug and i can't even contact her!?
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so, my hubby finally got in touch w/ skyy. turns out the roof of their apartment caved in w/ the storm and her boyfriend's car was crushed by a falling tree.
the hospital where she works was shut down by OSHA b/c they had no power - i have no idea what they did w/ all the animals.
i would have asked but i...
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djbq:
it's 2:30 and we just got back from the george acosta show at rise.
it was great.
except the guy to girl ratio was a/b 3-4 guys for every girl.
i like to chat w/ and watch the cute girls.
anyway, it was a great show.
probably the last time i'll get loaded for a long time.
i needed it.
i'm feeling pretty good right now.
i just wish this feeling would never end.
i guess that's where addictions come from - and the biology.
luckily i missed that gene in my family.
my sister got it.
but i got the depression gene.
so i don't know whose better off.
well gotta go.

later skaters.
vega
aoife:
I hate people who don't call. I sit around imagining all of the horrible things that could have happened, usually starting with them hating me and wanting me dead.
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i think my heart is breaking
very very slowly
every day i feel a thread tear
i hate my fucking brain
i want a lobotomy
i want skyy to just fucking come out and say she doesn't want to see me anymore
of course that's not what i want
but i want to feel like i'm going to die
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freakpirate:
frown

*hug*
racer_x:
Hate yourself all you want , but I think yer still waaaaaaaaaay nifty and cute.. kiss
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so, i just got back from a/b the most stressful vacation of my life:

got no sleep friday night, up packing, didn't want to leave the dog and cats, had to get up at 3:45 anyway to make our godawful early flight.
got to d.c. skyy met us at the airport - joy!
went shopping.
ate thai take out.
got ready for...
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quest36833:
Its good to see you back, although it sucks that your trip wasnt that great..
lucky1336929:
reading your journal entries is exhausting. and i know i say this every time but DONT WORRY SO MUCH! i understand its not that easy, but if theres one thing i learned when i was in the hospital, its that things have a way of working themsleves out. so you can either worry yourself to death and have things work out, or chill the fuck out and have things work out. i like door number 2.