still feeling a little unstable.
don't know what else to say.
life - it just keeps going on.
i look for meaning but sometimes i just feel like i'm deluding myself.
sometimes i wonder if it's a good thing that human beings are conscious.
i wonder if we'd all be happier as dogs or birds or trees.
but then we wouldn't have beer.
and no one to give us beer.
my dog loves beer.
and there'd be no pirates, no elves, no witches or cowboys, no priests or any other kinds of uniforms.
there'd be no imagination.
or maybe there's a lot more to my dog than he lets on.
don't know what else to say.
life - it just keeps going on.
i look for meaning but sometimes i just feel like i'm deluding myself.
sometimes i wonder if it's a good thing that human beings are conscious.
i wonder if we'd all be happier as dogs or birds or trees.
but then we wouldn't have beer.
and no one to give us beer.
my dog loves beer.
and there'd be no pirates, no elves, no witches or cowboys, no priests or any other kinds of uniforms.
there'd be no imagination.
or maybe there's a lot more to my dog than he lets on.
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i actually had a rather fucked up acouple of weeks in terms of feeling totally normal at some points and then feeling that everything was totally sucking or that i was sucking- anyways i do feel better now that i don't have so much work to do- but still there's always the stuff to deal with that has nothing to do with school or work or having too much to do- i guess it's the stuff that we're usually distracted from when we're so busy with the otherthings? i don't know- but sometimes it just feels like there's always something to feel shitty about...
i don't read a heck of alot of poetry, but The Prophet by Kahlil Gibran is very good to read when i'm down and out...i'll just leave you a sample of one of his-
"Then a woman said, Speak to us of Joy and Sorrow.
And he answered:
Your joy is your sorrow unmasked.
And the selfsame well from which your laughter rises was oftentimes filled with your tears.
And how else can it be?
The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain.
Is not the cup that holds your wine the very cup that was burned int the potter's oven?
And is not the lute that soothes your spirit the very wood that was hollowed with knives?
When you are joyous, look deep within your heart and you shall find it is only that which has given you sorrowthat is giving you joy.
When you are sorrowful, look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight."
sometimes this kind of stuff can at least put meaning into the seemingly chaotic and sad kind of moods i can stumble into from time to time- but then sometimes you need lots of the ice cream. in which case i highly recommend Marco's brand of Rasberry gelato.. it's fat free and organic but seriously the best freaking tastey experience i've had in a long time! in fact i think i am going to go to the store and get some 'cause now i'm all thinking about it and everything.
i hope your feelin' better doll! and keep passing those open windows! (to quote "hotel new hampshire") okay, bye for now!