So he took me back, because, get this, I told him I was in love with my ex still, and looking to fill that void. Isn't that wack?! So I went on the canoe trip like we had been planning, and it wasn't all bad. We had to battle nature while maintaining a buzz, but it was fun. So I kind of feel like I should kick him to the curb. My heart says he's not mister right, but he's mister right now. The other part of me wants to hang out and have some fun. All day I've been reminded that life is so short. I do still love my ex, but he made me miserable, and after like eight years of trying, we called it quits. My new guy isn't a rebound. He might be a placeholder, but at least he knows it. Sigh. What to do. We're supposed to go to Vegas for my birthday. Its more of a treat for him than a treat for me. So I was thinking for his birthday, I will get him something that I want more than he does. Like magic mushrooms heh He put me in his bands comeback video. That's kinda cool, right? I didn't ask for it.
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