i haven't been around in a while... no computer. it makes things difficult.
i'm now living all on my own. the apartment is good. some people seem to think its a little depressing and the reason why i've been having anxiety attacks. but i don't think so. i'm working all the time, so keeping really busy. its good. it keeps my mind from having too much time to worry about everything else. things are officially over with the boy. i actually never want to speak to him again.
just sucks because, i opened up and took a chance when i really didn't want to date anyone... and i ended up feeling like i'd had my dignity smushed into the floor. its an awful feeling. i didn't feel like myself at all for like the last month. i'm feeling good, trying to keep my chin up. looking at this city and thinking... i now have the opportunity to make this city my own. make what i want of it. be who i want in it. meet the people that i want to meet and share my life with in so many ways.
mostly i am just looking for some company in what is seeming like a lonely existance for the last few weeks. although... i have had a ton of visits from home. its wonderful. my brother stayed with me for 9 days or something like that. it was awesome. he's never around when i do go home, so we hadn't actually spent quality time together in a very long time. jazzy and her man were here for a night. that was fun. and even some randoms have checked into my day to day lately. its refreshing to see a familiar face.
on the other hand, i have made a new rather valuable friend. she's probably the reason i haven't gone insane over the last 2 weeks with everything that has been going on. she's fantastic. would fit right in with my girls that i value as family... we'll see where it goes.
i want to get tattooed... to cheer myself up. i think it will work wonders. i want to talk to dave about booking an appointment real soon. start saving my pennies!!!
hope all is well with everyone... i'll have to lurk around the site to see whats new and exciting!!
hearts.
i'm now living all on my own. the apartment is good. some people seem to think its a little depressing and the reason why i've been having anxiety attacks. but i don't think so. i'm working all the time, so keeping really busy. its good. it keeps my mind from having too much time to worry about everything else. things are officially over with the boy. i actually never want to speak to him again.
just sucks because, i opened up and took a chance when i really didn't want to date anyone... and i ended up feeling like i'd had my dignity smushed into the floor. its an awful feeling. i didn't feel like myself at all for like the last month. i'm feeling good, trying to keep my chin up. looking at this city and thinking... i now have the opportunity to make this city my own. make what i want of it. be who i want in it. meet the people that i want to meet and share my life with in so many ways.
mostly i am just looking for some company in what is seeming like a lonely existance for the last few weeks. although... i have had a ton of visits from home. its wonderful. my brother stayed with me for 9 days or something like that. it was awesome. he's never around when i do go home, so we hadn't actually spent quality time together in a very long time. jazzy and her man were here for a night. that was fun. and even some randoms have checked into my day to day lately. its refreshing to see a familiar face.
on the other hand, i have made a new rather valuable friend. she's probably the reason i haven't gone insane over the last 2 weeks with everything that has been going on. she's fantastic. would fit right in with my girls that i value as family... we'll see where it goes.
i want to get tattooed... to cheer myself up. i think it will work wonders. i want to talk to dave about booking an appointment real soon. start saving my pennies!!!
hope all is well with everyone... i'll have to lurk around the site to see whats new and exciting!!
hearts.