dhalia

so now... i got the apartment. thank you to anyone who was sending positive thoughts! it worked!

on another totally different note... today is the day that boy is supposed to be taking me out. if he does, then i can say, we are improving. this isn't a total waste of time. if he blows it off (which is what usually happens) then i say, okay everyone else was right, i need to walk away from this for the last time.

i haven't had anymore dreams about going home, but its still a thought in the back of my mind. i'm so broke. and it sucks. and i miss the way that things were when i was at home. money was never an issue. and i like it best when it isn't an issue... because then i don't even have to think about it. its like it doesn't even exist. haha. life would be so much better if money didn't exist. its the root of so many of the major problems i have had in my life.

one major problem about the apartment is... i can't bring my cat. and i hear my old roommate is hating having her there. they don't clean up after her properly... so apparently saetia has pissed all over the house. his fault. not my cat. she's never done that before. and the place was a mess when i went back to visit... that girl is gross. grossly messy. i can't handle it. i like staying with t. he's compulsively clean. its fantastic. anyway... time to call the old roomie and tell him i am coming to get all my shit, and i can take my cat to my mom's or somewhere else anyway... agh.

and i have to go in to work to figure out why i haven't been paid, and when i will be!!