oh jesus, life is a fucking whirlwind these days. I know I said I was going to stop dating, and that really was my intention. But then I got an email from this incredible man on that dating website I belong to and we hit it off, like I've never hit it off with anyone before in my life. He drove up from Walnut Creek...
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trogman:
Oh, and so you know - I'm very picky about that whole "friend" thing. I've (carefully) collected a whopping six so far. It ain't quantity, babe, it's...
datsun:
SG and my computer are bickering. Pictures up when I can, k? Or PM me your email & I can send 'em to you. 
Excerpt from a journal entry from several years ago (June 18th, 2006), that I find completely appropriate:
''...This was followed by listening to Sisters of Mercy and Bauhaus while working my way painfully through more of De Profundis by Oscar Wilde.
That volume is painful to read. For those unfamilliar with it, it is essentialy a very long love letter that he wrote to his...
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''...This was followed by listening to Sisters of Mercy and Bauhaus while working my way painfully through more of De Profundis by Oscar Wilde.
That volume is painful to read. For those unfamilliar with it, it is essentialy a very long love letter that he wrote to his...
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aphexplotz:
Great! you?
aphexplotz:
Thats great, aside from the drama, but what can you do?
datsun:
pretty tattoo.
Oh. My. God.
I rode over 25 miles today.
My legs hurt.
I rode over 25 miles today.
My legs hurt.
stiles:
Congratulations, 25 miles is no joke.
catagogo:
Congrats!! I bet it's the good kind of hurt.
Okay, what am I doing wrong right now?
I make myself go out and do stuff. I try to keep busy. I've been a lot better at holding myself to the promises I made to myself. But fuck all if it doesn't just feel like a colossal waste of time. When did my life become so empty?
No. I'm not going to blame that on...
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I make myself go out and do stuff. I try to keep busy. I've been a lot better at holding myself to the promises I made to myself. But fuck all if it doesn't just feel like a colossal waste of time. When did my life become so empty?
No. I'm not going to blame that on...
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damionw:
You aren't having trouble meeting new people, just having trouble forcing yourself on people. You can't go out and force people to fill a void in your life and expect something good. You need to be ready too.
Give yourself sometime, Be a homebody for a bit more, organize everything else, read books you've been meaning to read, learn something new and when you are comfortable with yourself, then go out and say hi to new people.
Give yourself sometime, Be a homebody for a bit more, organize everything else, read books you've been meaning to read, learn something new and when you are comfortable with yourself, then go out and say hi to new people.
tafkasp:
don't mistake what you think to be is your ineptness at meeting new people, for those people's inability to recognize a good thing when they see it.
you are a wonderful, beautiful, interesting woman.
and don't you ever fucking forget it.
you are a wonderful, beautiful, interesting woman.
and don't you ever fucking forget it.
When Ryan and I broke up, I had some great insight into ways to change my life for the better. I was going to reconnect with all the friends that I've lost contact with over the years. I was going to eat healthier, get more exercise, keep my alcohol consumption to a minimum, and for gods sake FINALLY try to quit smoking. I would go...
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tafkasp:
that's okay, i won't judge you either way.
damionw:
it sounds like a good plan. Good Luck.
I hate Christmas.
Let me rephrase. I hate being single and alone and hungover on Christmas. I wish I had somewhere to go. Anywhere.
edit:
Bugger this. I'm going for a bike ride. Maybe I'll see a movie. But I'm not staying home.
Let me rephrase. I hate being single and alone and hungover on Christmas. I wish I had somewhere to go. Anywhere.
edit:
Bugger this. I'm going for a bike ride. Maybe I'll see a movie. But I'm not staying home.
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rabidbuttons:
hughughughughughughughughughughughughughughug
that's how I feel right about now.....only I am stuck here..... crud
that's how I feel right about now.....only I am stuck here..... crud
damionw:
Thanks.
Hope you have a better new years.
Hope you have a better new years.
I'm sitting in the SouthWest terminal in the Sacramento airport. It occurs to me now that there is a reason I have not flown is so long.
I hate flying and I'm terrified right now.
Can't say I'm stoked on the 14 hour drive back from Arizona, either.
I hate flying and I'm terrified right now.
Can't say I'm stoked on the 14 hour drive back from Arizona, either.
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omeganightmare:
hope yah had a good trip.
Maybe I'll get a chance to hang out with all of y'all up there soon.
Maybe I'll get a chance to hang out with all of y'all up there soon.
subrosa:
You back mobile with wheels? Come to San Francisco.
Maybe this was a weird request, I don't know, Ryan has been sleeping elsewhere for a week now. He's going to be moving all his stuff today. I asked him if he would sleep just one more night at the apartment with me. Never expected sex, and I didn't ask for it. It wasn't what I wanted. All I wanted was for him to sleep...
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dino:
I'm now going through the same thing. I am so sorry.
greggster:
i wish you the best sweets, i love you both
the apartment always seems more empty after he's just left...
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subrosa:
I know that feeling.
You'll get through this. I promise.
You'll get through this. I promise.