Okay, so here's the skinny for my fellow SG'ers. i know of at least, oh two people who'll be interested in this, or disgusted, or both, depensing on how morally flexible you are?
I am married to a wonderful, if boring, woman, Diana-Elizabeth, or Diz, as I call her. I've been with her nine years and married to her 11 months. I am also in love with another woman: Kindra. She's American and I've never actually met her. . .
Let me let THAT sink in to your collected consciousness, for a moment. . .
Okay? Good, I'll continue. How can you be in love with a woman you've never met? I hear you ask. Well it's simple really. Thousands of hours of transatlantic phone conversations, webcam, emailing back and forth like crazy and the basic illogical realisation that I am not only inspired by this woman, but quickened by her also. I told her how I felt about her recently, after much soulsearching. She admitted to feeling the same way. . .
I'm hanging on her words, living on her breath, feeling with her skin. . .
We call each other every single day, addicted to the thoughts and feelings we share, hooked on each others' voice. My thoughts never leave her and hers me.
I am now preparing myself for the heart shrivelling inevitability of despair. She will never truly be mine I fear, as her husband is a pigfucker who has tthreatened her with the loss of thier child if she divorces him.
My wife has accused me of having an affair twice in three weeks. I would, if I could.
If it wasn't for the fact that we live three thousand miles and five hours time difference apart, we'd be having an affair already. She isn't happy either and is also a stinking coward - like me, it seems.
You can be disgusted with me now.
I'll allow it. . .
The fact that Diz is accusing you of having an affair is quite a big thing in my books. Looks to me that if things continue as they are you could end up with no one, pining after Kindra and without a wife. Really, think about what you want and what the trade off would be. If Kindra can't get away from her life and if you and Diz finished, seems like you might feel the exact same for Kindra, only stronger and even more unsatisfied because you'd be single.
Emotional infidelity is a big one... sure, you're not whacking your cock off another woman, but you're thinking about it and have an emotional connection with another woman that any married couple would be envious of.
If you found that Diz was in the same position as you, sharing all thoughts and feelings with another man, how would you react and deal with it?
I don't think I have any advice on this one, hon. I really don't know what you should or even can do.
Just keep your chin up
xxxx