decembermarie

I've lost Tony for good. He was my best friend. He had told me so many times he cared about me no matter what and then ended our friendship because I "caused too much drama in his life" because I got upset that he was completely ignoring me when I was having a panic attack and needed him. I mean was I so wrong for being upset? I feel miserable. I've been depressed and crying alot over him and the situation with John. I just really feel like I've lost all hope for ever being loved unconditionally, for ever being treated right. I feel so alone. All I have area few aquaintances, no real friends and it breaks my heart. I've cut more in the last 3 days than I have when I used to do it on a regular basis. I just can't handle this.