decembermarie

Last night pissed me off...dropping more of his friends including a guy he said he loved as a brother just because they wanted to hang out and be nice to me. It's one thing to drop me, but another to drop David, someone he supposedly cared about so much. And all because he simply said "I wanna stay here and hang out with them". It ripped at me to see someone I consider a friend so hurt and mad because he'd been betrayed by the person who said he'd always have his back. As April said it, the youngest person in the group (David) was being more mature than Tony about everything. After his actions last night, we all realized where his mind is. Maybe he's just going through stuff, maybe this is a test of how he really feels about each and every one of us, or maybe he's just screwing himself in the long run.

So ya know what we did? We drank lol. A bottle of absolut between four friends...me, April, David, and Todd. I think more than anything we were all happy to see David smiling and laughing again. After April left, David and I hung out til the early morning because he didn't wanna go home. I think it was around 7am when I got home from dropping him off.

Last night is kind of a drunken blur...I remember everything that happened but I'm not sure how I feel about it if that makes sense lol. My biggest fear is just fucking up things worse than they already are. I don't like all this drama.