So whats new with me you ask? Well not a whole lot. I threw Brian a birthday party Sunday. It was supposed to be asurprise but we got in a fight last week cuz he thought I was hiding things from him, so I admitted to it. Most of my spectacular plans for October have fallen through. My best friend April's birthday is on Oct...
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aesirr:
Damn my dear, hope things start to get better real soon.
semiretiredpunk:
That's too bad, except for the /\/ I \/\. I wanted to go a couple days later, but can't really afford the trip to Nashville a week before I go to Chicago.
So I met the girl of my dreams today....
Okay not really. I just logged onto SG and this girl caught my eye and her set took my breathe away. She's so beautiful that there aren't even words to explain it. Her name is Moxi Suicide <3
Moxi
Okay not really. I just logged onto SG and this girl caught my eye and her set took my breathe away. She's so beautiful that there aren't even words to explain it. Her name is Moxi Suicide <3
Moxi
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painunbound:
Now that would be some hot girl on girl action 
Can I watch?
Can I watch?
decembermarie:
hehe why of course and thanks so much AesirR for the compliment!
and thanks so much AesirR for the compliment!Rough night. Car broke down at the gas station (apparently my battery won't hold a charge so i have to buy a new one which i have no money for). The job hunting has got me nowhere. Brian and I have applied at soooo many places and gotten zero callbacks. The places we called back say they don't need anyone currently. We've even applied at...
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semiretiredpunk:
If you don't know how to change a battery:
If you do, I just wasted all that time typing all that. Good luck. 
decembermarie:
haha yes i know how to change the battery but thanks for the help. I just didn't have the money to buy one.
Wow I haven't blogged in almost a month..well things have been good. Brian and I are officially together again and I'm very happy with that. I've been under so much stress though...I have bills to pay and no way to do it. I've been putting in sooo many job apps but no callbacks. I also have 2 weeks to come up with $200 for some...
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Life's been crazy. Things are insane with my ex. We're definitely good friends but the rest of the details are kinda blurry. But I'm happy with how things are and where our relationship has gone. I've forgiven him for what happened because he has shown me time and time again that he's truly sorry for what he did. I dunno what's gonna happen but I...
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aesirr:
Well it sounds to be the good sorta crazy at least. Hope it stays that way.
heathslater:
Hey, I think things might work out for you guys in the end. You should be proud of yourself for forgiving him.
So I've been alot better lately. I'm moving on from Brian. He and I are actually okay now. A close friend of mine lives with him so the fact that there's not that awkwardness between him and I helps alot. Life's been crazy. May car has broken down 3 times in the past week. Everytime I get one part fixed, another, goes out. It's awful....
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aesirr:
I wish you lots of luck. One of the reasons Im glad I don't drive is things like that happening, thank goodness for public transport.
semiretiredpunk:
Good luck.
Sorry I haven't been as active as usual. I'm going through a horrible breakup. It's the first serious thing since Jesse...over a year ago. One of my friends is the catalyst in this breakup. She wanted Brian from the start. She told me she had a crush on him but I didn't think she'd do anything about it. He swore he only loved me. Things...
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semiretiredpunk:
Hugs. Strange, something very similar happened to me a couple years ago. I've been single since.
aesirr:
I'm sorry to hear that my dear. Geoff Hugs!
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aesirr:
You're looking really good.
painunbound:
Kick ass doll, especially the first one and the last two.
lasallelaval:
very nice!
I've gotten some messages and comments about the cutting...I'm in the Self Mutilation group here on SG but honestly, I don't see anything wrong with cutting. It helps me deal with stress and is a release. It's not like I'm out doing drugs or doing things that affect my health negatively. Maybe I just sound crazy but that's how I feel.
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decembermarie:
Thanks for understanding that you truly don't understand unless you've been there lol. I just hate when people gimme this whole "you need to get help" thing when they don't really know what it's like. I know they have good intentions, and thats appreciated, but it's something I have to deal with on my own.
And LieLock, to me cutting just calms me down when I get upset and panicky, once I'm calm I feel like I can think clearer and work my problems out, so I dont feel its a replacement to dealing with the issues.
And LieLock, to me cutting just calms me down when I get upset and panicky, once I'm calm I feel like I can think clearer and work my problems out, so I dont feel its a replacement to dealing with the issues.
I've lost Tony for good. He was my best friend. He had told me so many times he cared about me no matter what and then ended our friendship because I "caused too much drama in his life" because I got upset that he was completely ignoring me when I was having a panic attack and needed him. I mean was I so wrong for...
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the_timmy:
Hey I dont know how to help with this but..I know there is hope and u can be free from the cutting. go here
www.twloha.com these are real stories of people who have cut themselves before but been freed from it..rescue is posssible
www.twloha.com these are real stories of people who have cut themselves before but been freed from it..rescue is posssible
aesirr:
Not knowing the whole background and other significant things I can't offer a lot in the way of advice. But all I can say is the situation isn't worth getting yourself in a mess over. Do as I do and go out and make people your friends.
Otherwise, take care of yourself. Super Geoff Hugs!
Otherwise, take care of yourself. Super Geoff Hugs!
I'm so completely and utterly disappointed in him right now. Carrying on a relationship with someone who has a boyfriend, and worse than anything neither of them feel bad about it. "WE both tried our best to hold back" is NOT an excuse. Cheating one thing that kills me. I've lost two close friends over that shit because both friends were cheating on their significant...
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semiretiredpunk:
It sucks. One cheated on me with 7 guys, a few of which were my friends. Another one left me for my best friend. Part of why I've been increasingly hermit-like. Just pick up the pieces, don't mope too much, or it will drag you down. Like it did me. Or maybe there's no way around that.
the_timmy:
There are good guys out there hun...Don't feel bad about what you did... better he show you his true colors now than in a worse situation. It sucks though but you did the right thing. What goes around comes around and he will get whats coming to him one day and look back and see what you did was right... dont worry...itll all be good..Life has its ups and downs itsnormal..you'll bounce back and find even better friends. when ever you get down, pop in some bob marley and just chill..You cant be depressed listening to Bob Marley-Timmy