Hello wonderful world of naked beauts and crazies!
As said in my previous post, I was supposed to have a Halloween set come out, but some things came up.
In January I had a miscarriage. I never thought it would be as life affecting as it was. I was only 2 months into the pregnancy but hell, that's kind of when you stop freaking out and start adapting to the idea of having a spawn running around and repeating all your naughty words. I was, and honestly still am quite sad about the loss. Alas,I hope to one day be ready for a baby- and have done all the things in life I want to do be checked off on that mysterious invisible list we all have floating around in the abyss we call our "minds".
Speaking of that list I got to scratch one thing off. I got a job at an amazing flower shop. If you know me, you will know that I've fallen into a great love of flowers and horticulture in the past couple of years.
On my first day I was taken around the building and shown where things were kept blah dee blah then sent home, as I would start the next day (that being an orientation of sorts). I got home and was all high on life, and grabbed my pup to go for a walk at the park. Things were fine and then they weren't. I started to kind of hallucinate and feel really weird/(awesome?). Next thing I know there are four (more or less) people around me asking me if I was okay yet, telling me I was having a seizure. I've never had a seizure, nor have my parents. It just isn't in our bloodline, but my dad is adopted so maybe they fucked things up for me. Dazed, lost, scared (2 hours later than the last time I had checked the clock mind you) they helped me remember who I was and where I lived. Since then I've had many other episodes and full on big ass seizures. I've been diagnosed with Epilepsy and I couldn't be more terrified. My darling boyfriend came from tour to take care of me. It really hasn't been pretty and we are still working things out.
It just seems like every time I try and make a come back on this site, something awful happens and I need to aim my focus at fixing my life. But I thought maybe I'd come ahead and try to mix both together.
Thanks so much for reading!
And now bum ba da daaa a spoiler or two from le set:
As said in my previous post, I was supposed to have a Halloween set come out, but some things came up.
In January I had a miscarriage. I never thought it would be as life affecting as it was. I was only 2 months into the pregnancy but hell, that's kind of when you stop freaking out and start adapting to the idea of having a spawn running around and repeating all your naughty words. I was, and honestly still am quite sad about the loss. Alas,I hope to one day be ready for a baby- and have done all the things in life I want to do be checked off on that mysterious invisible list we all have floating around in the abyss we call our "minds".
Speaking of that list I got to scratch one thing off. I got a job at an amazing flower shop. If you know me, you will know that I've fallen into a great love of flowers and horticulture in the past couple of years.
On my first day I was taken around the building and shown where things were kept blah dee blah then sent home, as I would start the next day (that being an orientation of sorts). I got home and was all high on life, and grabbed my pup to go for a walk at the park. Things were fine and then they weren't. I started to kind of hallucinate and feel really weird/(awesome?). Next thing I know there are four (more or less) people around me asking me if I was okay yet, telling me I was having a seizure. I've never had a seizure, nor have my parents. It just isn't in our bloodline, but my dad is adopted so maybe they fucked things up for me. Dazed, lost, scared (2 hours later than the last time I had checked the clock mind you) they helped me remember who I was and where I lived. Since then I've had many other episodes and full on big ass seizures. I've been diagnosed with Epilepsy and I couldn't be more terrified. My darling boyfriend came from tour to take care of me. It really hasn't been pretty and we are still working things out.
It just seems like every time I try and make a come back on this site, something awful happens and I need to aim my focus at fixing my life. But I thought maybe I'd come ahead and try to mix both together.
Thanks so much for reading!
And now bum ba da daaa a spoiler or two from le set:
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I'm sorry for your loss, I took the option away from myself years ago and occasionally I question the decision.
Time and Flowers and Hopefully this crappy weather we've been having changes! ugh!