davonshire

everything is going right... work is good, I enjoy it, I actually like my job. My marriage is good, I love my wife and I am for the most part very happy.... but there is this hollow feeling inside my chest. I don't know what it is or where it comes from,,, there is just the feeling that something is about to go terribly terribly...
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I suck at waiting, I really, really do. I am waiting to start the new job that I was informed I had been hired for over a month ago. It is a government gig, so that means it moves at the speed of government, and that means that I am sitting around twiddling my thumbs waiing for the job to start. I am trying to...
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man, the thunderstorms here today are absolutely amazing! They have been rolling for over five hours now, spectacular!

So I just finished watching an excellent documentary entitled American Hardcore about the hardcore scene in the US during the early 1980's. It was excellent until the last 5 mins, when you have several of these bitter old fucks who complain about the state of punk rock today. "Those kids in their tour buses on MTV... that ain't punk" Now, my question to them is,...
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Sometimes, no matter how much sunshine there, it is always dark... this is one of those times

So, I find myself unable to focus on what I need to focus on. I keep trying and I manage tiny pieces in each instance, but ultimately I am unable to draw on what has been one of my major strengths for so many years now. I know that all I have to do is pick myself up by my bootstraps and make it happen,...
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Once again I am faced with a life changing decision. Though this one only involves career paths, it is a major decision that I will have to make in the next 21 days. I am blessed with an abundance of choices for my future, and those choices all offer great opportunity, but in very different directions. The question would become if I can manage to...
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things are definitely crashing down around me... I need this ride to go in reverse for a while...

Woot! Foo Fighters Tickets!

I am not very good at patience. I never have been, and I am trying hard to learn how to be patient, but I am not very good at it at all. I am a creature of impulse. Most of my purchases are made that way, most of my decisions get made on a snap, and I live with whatever consequences may occur from those...
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Do you remember what it was that brought Hilary back into the race when she first started to falter? It was because she performed as a "woman." She showed her emotions, on whatever show she was on, she let the weariness of the road show, she let her voice break and she showed emotion. These are traits that we most often identify as feminine. So...
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I am finally at a stage in my life where Social Distortion works as music for me. I have heard the name a lot over the last decade + and every time I had gone to listen to them, there was something that just didn't resonate with me, I mean I liked it fine, but it just didn't speak to me. Now however, it is...
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