I found a girl that can keep up with me. Im covered in these. hahaha
I think i was hoping it would take my mind off Jill. Actually, i think it was supposed to take my mind off alot of things. But its only added more. So much more than i should type. So much more than you would want to read. So much more all around. Also, shes a go-go dancer, and i've just got too much going on to be staying out all night so often.
I think im really confused about alot, and maybe i should just not be doing anything with anyone right now.
Jill had asked me to dinner this week. It was tonight. i bailed. Told her i was tired, wich is true. Texted her about an hour ago to tell her the truth, cause i cant stand to lie to her, even slightly and by omission. Im never gonna make this one cry again, like in the old days. Truth is, i just didnt know how to deal with it tonight. When i told her. I caught no shit for it. Just
-first off all, there nothing you could tell me that i wont try to understand. Ever. Secondly. i love you. So what ever thoughts are swimming in your head i hope that thought centers them a bit.-
She could keep me being who i should be, and though thats not why i love her, i cant help but wonder if maybe shes the best or the worst thing for me right now. I think she really could be the best.
Sorry, i just had to get this all out someplace most of the people i know never see. Sometimes its easier to breath this way.
Im why you look over your shoulder in the dark.
I think i was hoping it would take my mind off Jill. Actually, i think it was supposed to take my mind off alot of things. But its only added more. So much more than i should type. So much more than you would want to read. So much more all around. Also, shes a go-go dancer, and i've just got too much going on to be staying out all night so often.
I think im really confused about alot, and maybe i should just not be doing anything with anyone right now.
Jill had asked me to dinner this week. It was tonight. i bailed. Told her i was tired, wich is true. Texted her about an hour ago to tell her the truth, cause i cant stand to lie to her, even slightly and by omission. Im never gonna make this one cry again, like in the old days. Truth is, i just didnt know how to deal with it tonight. When i told her. I caught no shit for it. Just
-first off all, there nothing you could tell me that i wont try to understand. Ever. Secondly. i love you. So what ever thoughts are swimming in your head i hope that thought centers them a bit.-
She could keep me being who i should be, and though thats not why i love her, i cant help but wonder if maybe shes the best or the worst thing for me right now. I think she really could be the best.
Sorry, i just had to get this all out someplace most of the people i know never see. Sometimes its easier to breath this way.
Im why you look over your shoulder in the dark.
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