I have a super secret internet crush on:
She is absolutely dreamy.
Last night Shere, Salome, LostLucy,Olsen, wicked-mysterious BaneDoe and I partied at LBC. Wicked-naughty pictures of Salome and myself are coming soon...
Let us take a moment, though, to mourn my favorite blue dress. It ripped while Salome and I were... um... grinding on each other.
Clearly, this girl is not Salome, that isn't my real hair and this was taken an entirely different night. Point is, though, that this dress was hot and deserves a moment of silence.
A reason for celebration:
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I used to avoid looking at myself in the mirror while naked. If I did, I would freak out over the promonance of my ribs and spine... the thinness of my thighs. I was sure that I looked like a skeleton.
Most of my insecurity came from playing sports. I was always the skinniest thing on the softball field, and had to fight to keep weight on when I ran cross country. I heard the other girls calling me anorexic and bulimic behind my back... and I think I developed some sort of obsessive paranioa surrounding food. I would make a big show about asking for seconds, and never left the table to use the washroom. I was sure that people would think I was puking. When I encountered someone who I thought did actually have an eating disorder, I would have to keep repeating in my head "You don't look like that... You don't look like that..." Food was not enjoyable to me. I ate to gain weight. I frustrated me that no matter what I did, I either stayed the same weight or lost a few pounds. Once I weighed myself and nearly passed out because the scale put me at 115.
My life has changed so much in these last few years. I no longer play basketball, softball or run competitively. Although I miss running, I'm not sure if I can handle it yet. I'm taking baby steps... and maybe next year I can run the Chicago Marathon.
Food is actually enjoyable now. I never liked meat, and only ate it before because I felt I had to. Suprisingly (to me, at least) I maintain the same weight I did now as when I ate meat. I've been a vegetarian for two-odd years now, and I am so happy to say that I
LOVE food. I don't feel like its so... forced anymore.
Surely I am alot more comfortable with myself. I
am named on the internet.
I can now look at myself in the mirror and see what is truly there. I'm healthy. Inside and out. I'm 123 lbs of hotness.
This year I am actually going to wear a bikini! And shorts! Yay for me!
Being an SG has definately helped me work these issues out... and for that I am thankful for this awesome community. Kisses all around!
Pictures of me on my last vaca:
I'm in love with this life.
I'm glad you've become more comfortable with yourself, you hear it all the time, but you're phenomenal...and noone could take that away from you..
Food is good...if I could, I'd eat all day until my stomach exploded like that fatty in Se7en.....maybe not to that extreme but that depends on what you put in front of me.
All Hail Daven's Blue Dress...I'll pour out some of my rum in it's honor