daruma

To the kind, anonymous soul who re-activated my account for me- thank you thank you!

That was a pretty rad thing for me to wake up to.

*kisses*

Cancelled my account. To all the friends I've made on here- keep in touch. My email is Cbolger0223@gmail.com. Not only did I find out I never mattered to someone who told me I did and let me fall too hard, I also found out he's still involved with someone he said he wasn't, which is especially cute because he got mad at my involvement with...
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Went to the hospital today. I have pneumonia. That's about right...

,,,aaarrrrrggghh...

This has been a wild rollercoaster ride type weekend. Although money has flowed quite freely and generously this weekend, I don't know how much longer I can keep working. I hit a wall on Thursday at work for no reason (it was a really fun night with my favorite coworker and my boss, and I made $200 for 5 hours work), and realized I'm starting...
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So today is the day. It's been one year since I got the phone call that Brian was dead. That day is forever burned in my memory for so many reasons. It was Mother's Day, and I was working brunch at the White Dog. At 9am on a Sunday, we were all miserably hung over and dreading the day ahead. At 9:30 our manager (who...
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I am head over heels and comlpletely smitten. I'm not gonna get ahead of myself, but this boy is AMAZING. Butterflies in the stomach abound...

...sigh

I should be sleeping (which I never do), but instead I'm sighing... I *effing* adore this boy. I want him to be near me...

How can someone think about/care about someone they've never met so much?...

I think this is real...

...and good.

-C

I'm having the worst week ever...

...but I'm sure this boy might be real...

...bllleeerrggghh...

...how do I reconcile this?...

This dreaded date keeps getting closer and it's wrecking me more and more by the hour. Monday will be a year since BenBri was killed and I can't eat or sleep. I've been self medicating way too much lately with booze and cigarettes. Last night I was good. Had 3 beers at a friend's house then came home, but I still managed to stay up...
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I think I *like* a boy... and I think said boy likes me. BUT... we live so far away. This can't be good. I wish I could figure out a way to make this work. Blllaaarrgghhhh....