darlinginvalid

I am wildly underpaid, and rapidly amassing creditcard debt...
I think its time for me to part ways with SG.

As it is, I log on so infrequently, that everytime I do there is some whole new layout that is a navigational spasm to my brain.

It cooled down too much I think... now the frogs aren't deafening at night and I really miss the noise. There was something beautiful in falling to sleep to it.
The same sense I had when I was falling in love with this girl and her neighbors had chickens (in the middle of the city), I would wake up in the morning to the noise...
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The soles of my feet are blacker than they've ever been, my skin is constantly sticky from summer sweat earned in rooms unairconditioned, battling mosquitos has become a new and daily affair, I drive more miles on highways than on avenues, a good time looks like abandoned mines and a bottle of southern comfort.


but still, the neighbors make fun of me because I still...
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I need to make some friends here. The other interns are great and all...but Im starting to feel a little lonely or isolated. And I've only been here a week. It doesnt help that a decent sized town is about 20 minutes away. In the bay area everything just melts into everything else, cities touch cities that touch other cities and it just keeps going...
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I disappear for a few months and come back to a whole new SG layout. Im so disoriented! But I love the look of it.

Since I was last on, I've graduated, moved out of the dorms into my parents house, got a killer job, then got an even more killer internship that prompted me to quit my job, moved across the country, let my...
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I think I might have to sell my prom ticket.

So. Yeah. Obviously, Im back from Arkansas.
And now Im sitting here waiting and stressed out because a potential tornado is about to hit Ft Smith wherein aforementioned girl resides.

I'm just sitting, and waitting, and hoping it passes... and talking to her on the internet until her laptop's battery runs out...



I will ruminate more on my trip later, but am now too worried...
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Happiness is watching my bunnys play outside for the first time since last spring. When bunnies are happy they do this funny little dance. I'm not making it up, its in all the behavior books, recognized as offical body language. The "I'm happy dance" consists of jumping up in the air, and midair kicking their feet and tossing their heads. Its ridiculously cute. There was...
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Tonight I found happiness through means of selfdestruction.

Tommorow I will find it without.

And if that doesnt happen, than, soon enough.

Its funny, looking at my profile description, and realizing how much I've changed since I've last been on.

I cant decide if I know more who I am now, or even less.

"My life is inner turmoil, my thighs are black and blue, my sheets are stained and so is my brain, whats a girl to do?"