oh my goodness...my account expired without me realizing it...sometimes i wonder if i go on enough to pay for it...definitely worth it...more soon...more drama etc. life is scary sometimes
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only 3 days until my birthday, and the bad luck has already set in. i dont know what it is about birthdays, but everything always goes wrong...i need to find something fun to do this weekend...or someone fun... it would just make the day that much better...but hmmm, does bad luck come in the form of std's and rapists? 
probably...so i wont push my luck...
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kaleidoscopic:
D'OH! i missed your birthday! hope it was wonderful and the bad luck didn't get you 
oh miss ayngel, the job is making me so happy. things are falling into place...
a lot of ins, lot of outs, lot of whathaveyous
the dude abides...
oh ayngel, the boy sagas continue. i hope they work out for the best because after all this time you deserve someone who will treat you right and who you also adore and have passoinate times with.
i send you best wishes for luck and love
happy belated b-day beautiful
oh miss ayngel, the job is making me so happy. things are falling into place...
a lot of ins, lot of outs, lot of whathaveyous
the dude abides...
oh ayngel, the boy sagas continue. i hope they work out for the best because after all this time you deserve someone who will treat you right and who you also adore and have passoinate times with.
i send you best wishes for luck and love
happy belated b-day beautiful
kaleidoscopic:
ps...did you get to go strip clubbing/lap dancing? i've been DYING to go to a strip club lately...
i feel weird that i can only get sexual attention from women by paying for it...but such is my life at the moment...
i feel weird that i can only get sexual attention from women by paying for it...but such is my life at the moment...
here's to the boys who still open doors and kiss a girl on the cheek before she leaves instead of trying to nail her in the car. i went on an actual date!! and i wasnt upset at the end of it!!!
i need a nice boy...
oh!!! AND ONLY 13 DAYS TILL MY BIRTHDAY!!!! heyyyyy, today isnt too bad of a day. wish me...
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i need a nice boy...
oh!!! AND ONLY 13 DAYS TILL MY BIRTHDAY!!!! heyyyyy, today isnt too bad of a day. wish me...
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phoenixgirl:
Thats great...chivalry isnt totally dead, not yet anyway..glad you had a good time!!
lilblueducky:
i love real dates.
question for the Reaper: when morality dies twice, does that mean it lives again? i've watched my life flash by in segments of dull notions and sickening excuses that all revolve around a single hope. and im tired. so get me off and get me home and come back often for a little fun because i've got a mind to save and a life to...
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another day....
no money left in my bank account
doctors appointment
a rather trashy dream last night
soo you burn some bridges
watch one collapse before it goes up.
good opportunity though...
possibly. travel much??? i hope it works out. here's to daddy and his endless scope of resources. i am getting the FUCK out of dodge. or into it. hopefully a very pleasant in...
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no money left in my bank account
doctors appointment
a rather trashy dream last night
soo you burn some bridges
watch one collapse before it goes up.
good opportunity though...
possibly. travel much??? i hope it works out. here's to daddy and his endless scope of resources. i am getting the FUCK out of dodge. or into it. hopefully a very pleasant in...
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kaleidoscopic:
the new profile pic honey
Sabro is so sexy and cute at the same time. and yeah i've been waiting for her to go live forever since i've known her all through the sg process. it's like my baby's all grown up and naked on the internet for all to see
hee hee i put my two latest tales of roadiedom up now. it's going to be hard to say goodbye both to my friends and the good times with the band. i've been roadie for them since junior year of high school. we've been through the long haul together.
smooches for the pretty ayngel
the new profile pic honey
Sabro is so sexy and cute at the same time. and yeah i've been waiting for her to go live forever since i've known her all through the sg process. it's like my baby's all grown up and naked on the internet for all to see
hee hee i put my two latest tales of roadiedom up now. it's going to be hard to say goodbye both to my friends and the good times with the band. i've been roadie for them since junior year of high school. we've been through the long haul together.
smooches for the pretty ayngel
darlinginvalid:
I hope I feel this way whereever too. Although Im pretty impressed that I found it a million miles away from home, in the first place. This leads me to believe that I probably will, I probably am carrying home with me, without having realized it until now.
And it worked, frog magic! Theyre back and with the loudness.
Thanks!
xox
And it worked, frog magic! Theyre back and with the loudness.
Thanks!
xox
"question and answer"
he sat naked and drunk in a room of summer
night, running the blade of the knife
under his fingernails, smiling, thinking
of all the letters he had received
telling him that
the way he lived and wrote about
that--
it had kept them going when
all seemed
truly
hopeless.
putting the blade on the table, he
flicked it with a finger...
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he sat naked and drunk in a room of summer
night, running the blade of the knife
under his fingernails, smiling, thinking
of all the letters he had received
telling him that
the way he lived and wrote about
that--
it had kept them going when
all seemed
truly
hopeless.
putting the blade on the table, he
flicked it with a finger...
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on this night
the skies will open
cliffs will crumble
to the seas.
his voice
will sound like
the spoken word of God
and Ayngel's will
sing no more.
Be gone:
Dear, God
This Greek tragedy
has run dry in players.
blood turned to dust
we can spare
not a soul
nor spine
to mourn.
'06....its been awhile since i've written...bad night, poem to finish....
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the skies will open
cliffs will crumble
to the seas.
his voice
will sound like
the spoken word of God
and Ayngel's will
sing no more.
Be gone:
Dear, God
This Greek tragedy
has run dry in players.
blood turned to dust
we can spare
not a soul
nor spine
to mourn.
'06....its been awhile since i've written...bad night, poem to finish....
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qt:
would it be so wrong of me to say...i want u...
kaleidoscopic:
thanks for the compliments and happiness
i am totally excited right now 24-7
i am totally excited right now 24-7
another day...i absolutely abhor working late....not even staying until late, but only when i have to go in at 6 at night...you have the whole day to realize why you love having a day off and then WHAM! you suck again. but it is my fault today i suppose...doctors appt that could not be delayed...yuck.
i guess it isnt true that if you die in...
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brucewayne:
I totally understand the whole dream ruining your day thing. And i must say it does suck. Usually i end up trying to go back to sleep to force myself to try and change it. I watched a crazy movie about dreams and what not Waking Life it was wierd to say the least. If dreams get your juices flowing that movie will tickle your mind. OK now as for fucked up dreams had a few only a couple recurring however so i will use one fo those. In the one that scares the shit out of me i am sleighrideing, yea really scary right? and anywya i am going down this huge hill and i go out onto a resavior and go over the dam. Now i sleigh down the dam but hit a bumpin the ice and fall helplessly to my death and wake up on impact. Only thing that ever changes are the color of my gloves and the color of the sled. God i hate that dream. 
On a better note at least you dont have to go to work until 6 pm i leave everyday for work at 6am....ugh i wish i was back on a shift that suits my late night habbits like a 3-11 pm or something. we can hope and dream...right?
ok my dream wouldnt lighten a mood so ill try with this
the death of the day
brings the brith of the night
sometimes dreams can fill us with fright
but nevertheless we are reborn with a new days light
On a better note at least you dont have to go to work until 6 pm i leave everyday for work at 6am....ugh i wish i was back on a shift that suits my late night habbits like a 3-11 pm or something. we can hope and dream...right?
ok my dream wouldnt lighten a mood so ill try with this
the death of the day
brings the brith of the night
sometimes dreams can fill us with fright
but nevertheless we are reborn with a new days light
Feel better
darlinginvalid:
Kingston, kingston is on the odd side. Im not sure what vibe I get from that town yet- though in all fairness I havent explored it enough to completely pass judgement. Rhinebeck, havent been to though. I like it around here. Ive established myself a semi waldenpondish mood, wherein Im just isolated enough from the things I ought to be isolated from. Like consistant internet access. Hah! In anycase, if you can recommend anything wonderful to do or see inthe area I'd love it...
The most fucked up dream I've had in recent memory...I cant say it was all that gruesome...but when I broke up with my last girlfriend I started having stupid sappy love dreams that contradicted everything that was happening when I was awake. That created a pretty intense mindfuck. Otherwise I havent had terrible dream in quite a while-
and now im knocking on wood.
hah.
The most fucked up dream I've had in recent memory...I cant say it was all that gruesome...but when I broke up with my last girlfriend I started having stupid sappy love dreams that contradicted everything that was happening when I was awake. That created a pretty intense mindfuck. Otherwise I havent had terrible dream in quite a while-
and now im knocking on wood.
hah.
well, another day over...thank god. you know, i realize now why people go to college: so they dont have to stay in fucking retail their entire lives!!!!! im sick of shop-lifters to be completely honest. all of you out there who steal here and there, DONT!!!! i implore you, you ruin the days of every person that works in that store. especially the managers. i.e....
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hoogle:
HI back.
And yes, people who steal are lesser beings. So at least take comfort in that.
And yes, people who steal are lesser beings. So at least take comfort in that.
kaleidoscopic:
oh darling you're beautiful!
and hot, and sexy, and SO worth falling in love with. it'll happen soon enough. wish i could be there
glad to hear you're getting over him...it is process. don't rush yourself too much. work through it. you'll be stronger in the end.
sorry to hear work's been treating badly. work sucks. shoplifters and other smallminded selfish folk suck more. retail both sucks and blows.
hugs and much love til next time
and hot, and sexy, and SO worth falling in love with. it'll happen soon enough. wish i could be there
glad to hear you're getting over him...it is process. don't rush yourself too much. work through it. you'll be stronger in the end.
sorry to hear work's been treating badly. work sucks. shoplifters and other smallminded selfish folk suck more. retail both sucks and blows.
hugs and much love til next time
i try not to dwell or think or be all angsty and depressed...it just barely works anymore...how do you get past something that's been a part of you for all of your adult life? how do you keep sane? he's dating a fucking stripper...it is a goddamn joke but it breaks my heart all the same...
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spinhouse247:
Hey at least you don't have your x-fiance's name on your wrist like me *bangs head on keyboard for the 1000th time*.
kaleidoscopic:
hi beautiful how are you?
the umbrella is actually from Target. it's part of their standard collection so as far as i know it's in Targets all around the country. it's so fun because you can see through it and actually still see the rain, snow, sleet falling. the only problem is the plastic is kinda sticky so you have to be careful when you open it because it tends to stick to itself unless you dry it out really well and don't squish it.
the lights of course are not recommended for outdoor use
til next time...hope you are doing better and feeling stronger everyday
the umbrella is actually from Target. it's part of their standard collection so as far as i know it's in Targets all around the country. it's so fun because you can see through it and actually still see the rain, snow, sleet falling. the only problem is the plastic is kinda sticky so you have to be careful when you open it because it tends to stick to itself unless you dry it out really well and don't squish it.
the lights of course are not recommended for outdoor use
til next time...hope you are doing better and feeling stronger everyday
okay sorry. i've just never had a chance to say that to anyone. but really. how are you?