darkdrow

I dunno...

I want to be something bigger than what I am. I don't mean I want to be succesful because, success is personal and only subject to your own measure. I could be further in my radio career if I wanted to be. They've tried to promote me and I usually decline it. I don't need money or fame.

What I do need is to feel like I am affecting some sort of change. It is SO huge that they say one person can't do it... but neither can a million. Millions protest and to no avail.

So what does one person do. I try to educate in my daily show. I try to make people care about one another, but caring is easy to do on the surface and hard to do underneath. I can tell you I care about you, or even act like I do.. but to REALLY incorporate you into my emotions.. thats very difficult. It takes practice. I think I am doing it now. At least I try to.

I'm just frustrated. I watch the news and a guy stands up and demands US troops be sent home. And the news says it's a political stunt... and I can see that. But... you know... it's not fair. Would someone say that for political gain? Maybe this guy GENUINELY cares? If he doesn't.. can we support him anyway as a means to an end.. or is that dirty.

They say absolute power corrupts absolutely... but... the more I think about it.. the more I don't know if I am corruptable. I don't care about money and the only thing I would do with power is try to ease the pain of everyone... So I guess I would fail at politics *lol*

I dunno... I feel like the idea is inside me trying to get out. Trying to break through to the surface. I wish it would.. the poking is driving me insane...

Maybe I just have delusions of grandeur.. or maybe that's just something they made up... to stop would-be great people from achieving great things...

"Don't be Great... just fear... consume... labour... die"

*sigh*

What do we do, friends... what do we do...