dandoles

ill scream on the inside
at the words in my head
telling me to keep back
keep focus
don't let them to close

the dark sky's in my mind clear away
bringing tears not of hurt
loving life just that much more

sinking slowly
drowning in
the chaos i created
disjointed from everything
that made me who i was
what i wanted to be

i fought the wars in my mind
the battles i was losing
over and over
mixed strategies
and broken words
pigments of a fake reality
i couldn't control

left alone in the dark to wander
i melded my mind
with the empty sorrow in my heart
cursing over
and over about the things
that i had done wrong
the path i was blindly walking