This is the first time I can remember that I've actually felt more depressed in the morning than when I went to bed the previous night.
Ever have a dream so vivid that when you wake up you're confused because, despite the fact that you know it was just a dream, the person still isn't there in your arms? Hell, I don't even know who this person is. She has no name, but hours later, I can still see her face and feel her body next to mine. If I close my eyes, it feels like I'm there.
And to top it off, I come home and am greeted by something I'm really not prepared to deal with right now. I just more or less got offered a graduate position at Stanford doing organic synthesis for nanotechnology--almost exactly what I want to do in the first place. All I have to do is put together a resume, talk to Jason, and go from there. But fuck I don't want to go to California for 4 or 5 years of my life. Potsdam is far enough away from where I want to be as it is.
Now what's fucking with me is that these happened on the same day.
Ever have a dream so vivid that when you wake up you're confused because, despite the fact that you know it was just a dream, the person still isn't there in your arms? Hell, I don't even know who this person is. She has no name, but hours later, I can still see her face and feel her body next to mine. If I close my eyes, it feels like I'm there.
And to top it off, I come home and am greeted by something I'm really not prepared to deal with right now. I just more or less got offered a graduate position at Stanford doing organic synthesis for nanotechnology--almost exactly what I want to do in the first place. All I have to do is put together a resume, talk to Jason, and go from there. But fuck I don't want to go to California for 4 or 5 years of my life. Potsdam is far enough away from where I want to be as it is.
Now what's fucking with me is that these happened on the same day.