cypher

Cripes.
I'm sort of blowing it now, aren't I?
Sort of easier to do that than to later be rejected, I guess.
Nice to fall into that line of thinking. Pathetic ass I've become.
Some things have to be handled delicately. Maturely.
Lovingly? Patiently. Slowly.
I undersatand wanting to be cautious. I understand that all too well.
You are worth my time and my patience.
You are worth the risk.
I am just a foolish little bastard.

cypher.


( Later, that same day... )
I am headachey. 4 hours sleep is no good for old men.
But where is my love?
Plotting to murder me for being a dumbass?
heh.
i am drinky tea. bed soon. unconscious in my dark blue mess of blankets..
i'll bet she smells great.
i am strung out on love.
it makes me ill, but fuck it.

cypher
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