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i was offered a really good role tonight.
quite juicy.
but the director is an ass.
so i said no.

i wanna play guitar.
i'm a rock and roll star.

some people simply aren't aware of how terribly rude they are...or if they do, they don't give a crap.

my elder brother, for example, is an ass.

my best friend just became engaged.
soon i will be the only single guy in my circle.
besides my gay friends, that is.
am i falling behind?
i feel unaccomplished.
no no no.
i am incorrect.
there is no chain of events in life we should be following.
it isn't a chain. it isn't.
it's just a hallmark cards sales pitch, isn't it?
isn't it..???

my best friend just became engaged.
soon i will be the only single guy in my circle.
besides my gay friends, that is.
am i falling behind?
i feel unaccomplished.
no no no.
i am incorrect.
there is no chain of events in life we should be following.
it's just a hallmark cards sales pitch, isn't it?

it is the most borish thing in the universe, methinks.

either that or it's really quite grand.

reborn. reinstated. released. repulsed. redeemed.

feh.

redemption in this life.

victory over cursed demons.

moments whose least memory is sufficient to fire my blood.

here comes 2003.

.....

i stopped to think and had another "what the hell am i doing?" moment.
then i continued anyhow.
the voice in the back of my noodle says "repercussions, mrDungForBrains, repercussions".

i gag the voice and go back to sleep.

so much distance between us all.
legions who are blinded by the veil of make-believe.
rarely discerning reality, even then it's much too late... and we expire.
there's a love all can partake of, if only we can see.
try with whitened knuckles to hold it in place.
and our hearts can save this world, if we can see it.

this is the time of your life.
but you don't realise.
now what would you do?
if you knew this was your last day on earth?
i'd kiss you goodbye.

thankyou friends.

i am looking at going to nyc in november.
i am tired.
i should go to yoga class 2nite.
i am haunted.
i am.

quis custodiet ipsos custodes

quis custodiet ipsos custodes

in the middle of dreaming it all up again i find that it is not quite as easy as it was when i was 18 as the dreams have changed and the players are even more in flux while i am more thoughtful and less afraid but also less passionate.
it is here in this place that i once again found...
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